Lethargic Stumblings of my Mind
Hosted an admitted student. She was very cool. Mostly convinced her to come to Brandeis. She would do very well here. Stayed up late. Having period and can't handle sleep deprivation. Spent day in distant catatonic state. Skipped both afternoon classes and slept/lay in a stupor on my bed. Still out of it. Just drained physically and mentally from this. Not really normal for me to be affected this way. But I don't really have a normal for this as far as side effects go.
Daphne is taking a vacation to Wittenberg for the time being. I'm in the library now. Wanting to work on Hamlet in castle-ness, but honestly too exhausted. Got official job acceptance letter from Pilgrim Lodge along with lots of official paperwork, which is exciting but now I need time to fill it out and the energy to use that time for that purpose.
I feel like my life energy is being drained from my body in the form of blood. Because it is. I should take some iron or something.
Shopping for larps and tton cast party were both lovely. Didn't end up hosting student that night, so that worked out well. This sounds kind of shallow (OMG, he looked at me!!! :-P), but I was pleased to note a moment during the party when Plesser was smiling and looked at me, who was across the table from him, and didn't stop smiling or look away when I looked back. Maybe it isn't true that he can't stand me after all. Maybe there is hope for us to be friends yet. *sigh* Maybe I don't always say the wrong things around him.
I want to make this night productive. I'm waking up a bit now, so maybe I'll be able to get some reading done tonight or something. I really am tired of not doing and work and I'm ready to change that and make work happen. When I have more energy. :-P
I figured out how to phrase the way I feel about Brenda and Frances leaving next year (even if Brenda is only potentially leaving). It is a very distinct feeling from the way I feel about having to say goodbye to other people in my life: past, present, or future. Being told that Brenda and Frances aren't going to be here anymore is like being told that there aren't going to be any more thunderstorms anymore. Or that the birds are leaving and won't be coming back. It's like loosing a part of nature. A part that would be tragic to lose. It would be something that would be even more tragic if you were to ever get over it. (A fact which is true but which will make coping difficult..) I know I'll manage fine. I've never been a dependent or clingy sort of person, but it makes me sad to think that the world would ask me to live without thunderstorms. And no, it's no comfort that England is going to get to experience the thunderstorms for a while. (I'm happy for my Wittenberg friends and want them to go off and have their own lives, of course. Those lives just need to take place within a ten mile radius of me. :-P)
Anyway. I'd like to either go to archery tonight (shooting balloons left over from Admitted Student's Day) or go be with Wittenberg people. But I don't actually have the energy for either of these things, so I doubt they will happen. Ah well.
Oh, but I got an A- on my paper for Fictional Thinking!!!!! :-D I'm so pleased!
Daphne is taking a vacation to Wittenberg for the time being. I'm in the library now. Wanting to work on Hamlet in castle-ness, but honestly too exhausted. Got official job acceptance letter from Pilgrim Lodge along with lots of official paperwork, which is exciting but now I need time to fill it out and the energy to use that time for that purpose.
I feel like my life energy is being drained from my body in the form of blood. Because it is. I should take some iron or something.
Shopping for larps and tton cast party were both lovely. Didn't end up hosting student that night, so that worked out well. This sounds kind of shallow (OMG, he looked at me!!! :-P), but I was pleased to note a moment during the party when Plesser was smiling and looked at me, who was across the table from him, and didn't stop smiling or look away when I looked back. Maybe it isn't true that he can't stand me after all. Maybe there is hope for us to be friends yet. *sigh* Maybe I don't always say the wrong things around him.
I want to make this night productive. I'm waking up a bit now, so maybe I'll be able to get some reading done tonight or something. I really am tired of not doing and work and I'm ready to change that and make work happen. When I have more energy. :-P
I figured out how to phrase the way I feel about Brenda and Frances leaving next year (even if Brenda is only potentially leaving). It is a very distinct feeling from the way I feel about having to say goodbye to other people in my life: past, present, or future. Being told that Brenda and Frances aren't going to be here anymore is like being told that there aren't going to be any more thunderstorms anymore. Or that the birds are leaving and won't be coming back. It's like loosing a part of nature. A part that would be tragic to lose. It would be something that would be even more tragic if you were to ever get over it. (A fact which is true but which will make coping difficult..) I know I'll manage fine. I've never been a dependent or clingy sort of person, but it makes me sad to think that the world would ask me to live without thunderstorms. And no, it's no comfort that England is going to get to experience the thunderstorms for a while. (I'm happy for my Wittenberg friends and want them to go off and have their own lives, of course. Those lives just need to take place within a ten mile radius of me. :-P)
Anyway. I'd like to either go to archery tonight (shooting balloons left over from Admitted Student's Day) or go be with Wittenberg people. But I don't actually have the energy for either of these things, so I doubt they will happen. Ah well.
Oh, but I got an A- on my paper for Fictional Thinking!!!!! :-D I'm so pleased!