fwack
Well this journal seems to be turning into my have a bitch jounal . . . .
Yesterday I got home from work, had dinner, and got a call from Alix. We went to Tegans / Micka's place for Footy. On the way in, Alix told me He and Tegan are buying a house together. fwack, the preverbial kick in the guts. Because,, even though i know i should be happy and every thing, To me, that translated as "Well, I', going to get myself in debt for 30 odd years to buy a house with my sister. And I really cant see our relationship having any sort of future, because i would rather buy a house with my sister, than with my girlfriend. I'm going to be paying off a morgage until i'm 40 years old for a house i'll own with my sister. I really dont see us getting married one day and buying a home and even having kids, because by the time i even own the house, Theres no way i'll get myself into another morgage, let alone marriage. So basically, i see no future there at all. "
I know that sound so incredably unfair, but hey, thats how it feels. to me, thats exactly what he and tegan buying a house together means. And its left me questioning everything.