Don’t let the door hit you on the way out.

Sure, you started off all full of hope and promise and cheer. In January there was my brother’s wedding in Jamaica (lovingly timed to coincide with my 40th birthday. I highly recommend pirate parties on the beach when one turns 40 ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I gave a real update here and I've been struggling with my lack of posting. Much of the posting I had done was in private posts that I'll now be unlocking. I have a post, it has really been weighing on my mind, and blocking my ability to have any other conversations here, so here goes ( Read more... )

Our hopes, our dreams are gone. We had the follow-up U/S yesterday and the baby stopped developing when it measured 6w5d (if was 5d behind on the last scan). Today the miscarriage started and I can't stop crying.

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After days of no spotting I just started again. Lots and not like before. Damn I'm back to heart attack city

So the spotting stopped yesterday afternoon and hasn't shown up again. We went in for the US today, and I am pregnant! Worrisome though, the embryo is measuring about 5 days behind, and they've diagnosed a subchrorionic hemorrhage. So still no green light in my mind, we go back in 2 weeks for a followup US

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Virtually no spotting today - whew. Yesterday was not a good day, cramping was worse in the am, lots of spotting, a bit of clottiness at work, (old)

Thursday can not come soon enough. I've booked it and Friday off as vacation.

Well that was a hell of a lot better beta! 943 and my progesterone was around 50. They won't be doing any more testing, until the US on the 13th.

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Well this is no damn good! My 2nd beta came back at 290, which is 68% and considered in the 'normal' range. My progesterone (you know that stuff they made me stop taking the shots for) is at 43! it was in the 90s 3 days ago. I am so frustrated and sad and worried. I go for another beta on the 29th.

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Well here we go. My beta came back - 133.8hCG and my progesterone is 93.94 I'll be going back in for a doubling test on Monday.

My first pregnancy was 111, my second was 303 and the third, and only one that stuck was 620. So 133 is scary. Making it even more scary? They've told me I should stop taking the PIO. That terrifies me ( Read more... )

OMG you so need to call! I need to be put out of my misery. Yet, I really don't want to have my dreams crushed. As long as you don't call there's still the chance I might be pregnant. Today is total hell.

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