A week starting all over again...
I have been neglectful dear livejournal, forgive me. I don’t know why because it makes me feel better to empty my brain here.
I called out of work again today and rightly fucking so considering you don’t get your sick time when you get canned. Use it or lose it and considering I am facing imminent termination I’ve got to use it. I was going to work one of my other jobs during the day today but didn’t go to bed until 5AM but that’s ok because I stayed up all that time fucking off with an old friend that I haven’t seen in what feels like a life time. It was worth it. We had spaghetti at 4AM. That’s the good life, just kidding, it’s like impossible to sleep with a stomach full of noodles. I think we were laughing and talking too loud and kept my room mate and his skank, I mean girlfriend, up all night. But if we were talking about getting even I would say one down 99 to go.
I went to my parent’s house today and spent most of the day online doing research and downloading music. New music makes me so happy! And it was free, joy! I can’t manage money, and when I do a catastrophe occurs that disorganizes all the good management. Welcome to the cycles of life, you know what though, it’s ok I am not unhappy.
I am so anxious to get to New York. It’s driving me crazy, killing my focus. It’s 7 weeks until Renee and I go up to find my place. I am getting impatient waiting on all of my tax shit so I can file for my loans.
Ben called me Saturday night, oddly enough it was right after I had downloaded a ring tone for his number, it made me infinitely happy. He told me to fly to LA and this is a perfect example of how I can’t manage money, so I say ok if you can find me a cheap enough ticket. He searched, what a babe, seriously I so would have left it up to me if I had been in his shoes. The cheapest he could find was like $275 for a round trip and I wasn’t going to spend that much. I thought maybe I would find something like when I went to San Francisco for $158. No such luck though so he hunts down a one way for $110 and told me to just fly out and he’d get me back whenever he had to go back to NY. Heh, I am ballsy but not that ballsy. I declined because I have to stay here and be making money. Zac texted me too, to tell me he was back in New York. He’s great but I like Ben better. Zac has that Brad Pitt look that I have sworn off a hundred times and just can’t not like. It’s hot yes but I’ll take my 6’5” Jew boy any day. Or so that’s the case for now. I like how they are both on the road a lot though. It’s not threatening.
Tonight is going to be such a bitch. I have been up late and/or gone out every night for the past few days. I have to go to sleep NO later than 10 so I can be at work at 7 tomorrow. Kyle said we would hang out but I think his girlfriend is going to end up poisoning my drink one night. She told him the other night that she didn’t know how she felt about me, which is girlfriend speak for I want to kill that girl. Kyle is fun so I’ll continue to chance it I guess. He was like I am going to be crashing your party in NYC. Hm… no. I’m not carrying any baggage up there. The chemistry is undeniable, he feels good to be around but there is no such thing as enough for me anymore. I love the fuck out this ME ME ME business.
Shit here comes the yawning. I have shit I need to get back to and I have to go back home soon. Gravy baby. I’m out.
I called out of work again today and rightly fucking so considering you don’t get your sick time when you get canned. Use it or lose it and considering I am facing imminent termination I’ve got to use it. I was going to work one of my other jobs during the day today but didn’t go to bed until 5AM but that’s ok because I stayed up all that time fucking off with an old friend that I haven’t seen in what feels like a life time. It was worth it. We had spaghetti at 4AM. That’s the good life, just kidding, it’s like impossible to sleep with a stomach full of noodles. I think we were laughing and talking too loud and kept my room mate and his skank, I mean girlfriend, up all night. But if we were talking about getting even I would say one down 99 to go.
I went to my parent’s house today and spent most of the day online doing research and downloading music. New music makes me so happy! And it was free, joy! I can’t manage money, and when I do a catastrophe occurs that disorganizes all the good management. Welcome to the cycles of life, you know what though, it’s ok I am not unhappy.
I am so anxious to get to New York. It’s driving me crazy, killing my focus. It’s 7 weeks until Renee and I go up to find my place. I am getting impatient waiting on all of my tax shit so I can file for my loans.
Ben called me Saturday night, oddly enough it was right after I had downloaded a ring tone for his number, it made me infinitely happy. He told me to fly to LA and this is a perfect example of how I can’t manage money, so I say ok if you can find me a cheap enough ticket. He searched, what a babe, seriously I so would have left it up to me if I had been in his shoes. The cheapest he could find was like $275 for a round trip and I wasn’t going to spend that much. I thought maybe I would find something like when I went to San Francisco for $158. No such luck though so he hunts down a one way for $110 and told me to just fly out and he’d get me back whenever he had to go back to NY. Heh, I am ballsy but not that ballsy. I declined because I have to stay here and be making money. Zac texted me too, to tell me he was back in New York. He’s great but I like Ben better. Zac has that Brad Pitt look that I have sworn off a hundred times and just can’t not like. It’s hot yes but I’ll take my 6’5” Jew boy any day. Or so that’s the case for now. I like how they are both on the road a lot though. It’s not threatening.
Tonight is going to be such a bitch. I have been up late and/or gone out every night for the past few days. I have to go to sleep NO later than 10 so I can be at work at 7 tomorrow. Kyle said we would hang out but I think his girlfriend is going to end up poisoning my drink one night. She told him the other night that she didn’t know how she felt about me, which is girlfriend speak for I want to kill that girl. Kyle is fun so I’ll continue to chance it I guess. He was like I am going to be crashing your party in NYC. Hm… no. I’m not carrying any baggage up there. The chemistry is undeniable, he feels good to be around but there is no such thing as enough for me anymore. I love the fuck out this ME ME ME business.
Shit here comes the yawning. I have shit I need to get back to and I have to go back home soon. Gravy baby. I’m out.