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I went to Ultra in Miami this weekend with Clay, Diego, Amir & Tommy. And last week, well the week before is when I departed, I went to NYC and I'll get around to posting something meaningful about that eventually.
It was fun I saw Santogold, The Ting Tings, Perry Farrell, Benny Benassi, The Black Eyed Peas, Pendulum, The Presets, Cut Copy, Late of Pier, LA Riots, Boys Noize, The Bloody Beetroots, Crystal Castles, The Prodigy, MSTRKRFT, Simian Mobile Disco and Rabbit In the Moon. I think that's it.
I was thinking how I would tear into Perry Farrell even as old as he is. He just seems so voyueristic and perverted it's exciting like I bet he would ask me to do dirty freaky shit... and I think I'd like it.
Seeing Benny Benassi spin live was fucking sick! He played inside and all these people were dancing so hard in the muggy heat of miami that the walls were sweating. It was nuts and comparable only to really rough sweaty sex. I came out of there looking like I had exited a swimming pool and it was sweat but it was so exhausting in there that when you hit the fresh air it was euphoric.
Pendulum rocked out, hard. After they played they hit the audience to see the next show and I saw 4 of them standing there and I nervously contemplated telling them how great their show was and finally swallowed enough pride to go up to them. I said "I was just up front at this stage for your show" and one of the guys said "I know". And was like huh???? He was like "I saw you, you're kind of hard to miss". I let my head swell up good and then told them they rocked and quickly got on about my way before I let myself get into trouble.
The Black Eyed Peas were fun. I was like 15 feet from Fergie. Holy shit. It was fun as fuck though, no joke. I ended up at the front of the crowd by complete accident which was perfect. I think I kind of dig on the dude with the perfectly straight long hair, what is he?
I have decided I love the Presets more than air, lucky I don't have to choose! The singer is hot because he is the singer and that's got all the sex appeal and he has nice lips. That's not why they are amazing though. It's the music they could be asexual aliens in the form of cat shit shaped and colored matter and I would still think they were it. End of story.
Cut Copy was awesome too. Their lead singer is a new Bernard Sumner, its amazing the resemblance in their voice and their guitarist/keyboardist is sexy. I would have licked the sweat off his skinny australian indie rock boy ass, or maybe better to say off his back right above his ass. Yeah that would be hot.
Seeing the Prodigy was a defining moment in life. I suffered some noteworthy injuries from the mosh pit but ended up 6 people back from the stage. When they played the Outer Space song I threw my arms over the guys on either side and we just screamed the song at the tops of our lungs swaying back and forth. Amazing. I almost cried I think. It was a a moment I had dreamt of since I was like 9 or 10 years old.
Boys Noize was actually kinda shitty live.
LA Riots ROCKED.
The Bloody Beetroots were fucking apeshit. They have the hardest party, I swear its what they told us and it wasn't far from the truth. They are aggressive hard drum and bass. Its angry music and the crowd was riotous so I just slipped in and rioted joyously along with the other maniacs. What fun! I have never heard of them and I was going to leave to go see Stanton Warriors when some one told me I should stay and I'm glad I listened.
I didn't get to see all of Rabbit In the Moon. I had to catch the tram back because the boys left without me. Their new opening was pretty cool. It reminded me of the cult women from the Wickerman. The song was bad ass. The ex boyfirend was there though. He said he was burnt out on it so I thought maybe he didn't do it anymore. But I think... my opinion on the matter was that he was not burnt out on it. I think he just spent too much time fretting about my youth and wanted to protect me from any partying sorts of activities for fear I would get consumed by it and he would lose me to it, even if this meant eliminating these activities from his own life completely as well. I just had this epiphany Friday night. They were setting up and I was text messaging away and this guy was standing at the edge of the stage with his back to me and I looked up and was like damn, nice calves. And then I was like eek! So I just closed my eyes and head bopped to the trancey filler music and did my best to lay low and not open them again until their show started. I miss hanging out with all those guys so much. I miss Steven too. Not dating him, just the quirky entertainment he never seemed to run low on in social situations. He was like the class clown, he conquered social awkwardness with goofiness. If he were in touch with and aware of his self worth he wouldn't be such an insecure asshole. But insecurity leads to possesive behavior, he feels like he has to lock down things to keep them because he doesn't realize in his best form things would naturally just stay around him out of like. But that is all moons ago now. You just have to go with the flow and this is where its taken us.
Hm....
I spent too much money in Miami and that place is fucking bad. I am not scared of other people easily. I hold my own, I generally put off enough bitch vibe to deter the insane ill-intented predator type. But I will say this I walked through the Bronx in the middle of the night lost as hell, first time ever and didn't sweat it a bit. Getting lost in Miami by myself, the shit I went through, scared the bejesus out of me. Fuck Miami, did I say I wanted to live there? Yikes.
19 more days (I think but I suck at math) until the move to NYC. I wish I were there now kind of. I got home today and my parents are baby sitting my cats and my brother has a girl over. I feel kind of hollow. I was depressed when we first got back today now I just feel like nothing, like any little thing could take me either way. If my cats were here and we were snuggling I'd be just fine but since they aren't I feel cold and needy. I could go out with any number of friends tonight but I just want quiet. Ben would be nice right about now. He is the perfect person to snuggle, god that sounds disgusting but he is just laid back enough to be there but to leave me the hell alone except for like a hand at the small of back while I lay next to him on my stomach. I want to say he is obedient but I don't even have to tell him what to do he just reads me (and it doesn't bore me). That sounds great and all but he's not like you'd think. Its hard to explain. I just like him and if our relationship stayed exactly as it is now it could probably go on forever. When I say relationship it's nothing basically. It's a friendship only by threads. Who knows what will happen when I live there. I am scared of where it could go. I dread and long for what's to come but I'd cut all the benefits in a heart beat to keep him my friend or so I think. Standing in front of him might be a different story. He'll probably go out on tour again soon and save me the anxiety.
I think I am going to watch a movie now. I Netflixed 2 weeks ago and I never got around to watching it. It's Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil. I am going to start paying this thing better attention. It's good therapy.
It was fun I saw Santogold, The Ting Tings, Perry Farrell, Benny Benassi, The Black Eyed Peas, Pendulum, The Presets, Cut Copy, Late of Pier, LA Riots, Boys Noize, The Bloody Beetroots, Crystal Castles, The Prodigy, MSTRKRFT, Simian Mobile Disco and Rabbit In the Moon. I think that's it.
I was thinking how I would tear into Perry Farrell even as old as he is. He just seems so voyueristic and perverted it's exciting like I bet he would ask me to do dirty freaky shit... and I think I'd like it.
Seeing Benny Benassi spin live was fucking sick! He played inside and all these people were dancing so hard in the muggy heat of miami that the walls were sweating. It was nuts and comparable only to really rough sweaty sex. I came out of there looking like I had exited a swimming pool and it was sweat but it was so exhausting in there that when you hit the fresh air it was euphoric.
Pendulum rocked out, hard. After they played they hit the audience to see the next show and I saw 4 of them standing there and I nervously contemplated telling them how great their show was and finally swallowed enough pride to go up to them. I said "I was just up front at this stage for your show" and one of the guys said "I know". And was like huh???? He was like "I saw you, you're kind of hard to miss". I let my head swell up good and then told them they rocked and quickly got on about my way before I let myself get into trouble.
The Black Eyed Peas were fun. I was like 15 feet from Fergie. Holy shit. It was fun as fuck though, no joke. I ended up at the front of the crowd by complete accident which was perfect. I think I kind of dig on the dude with the perfectly straight long hair, what is he?
I have decided I love the Presets more than air, lucky I don't have to choose! The singer is hot because he is the singer and that's got all the sex appeal and he has nice lips. That's not why they are amazing though. It's the music they could be asexual aliens in the form of cat shit shaped and colored matter and I would still think they were it. End of story.
Cut Copy was awesome too. Their lead singer is a new Bernard Sumner, its amazing the resemblance in their voice and their guitarist/keyboardist is sexy. I would have licked the sweat off his skinny australian indie rock boy ass, or maybe better to say off his back right above his ass. Yeah that would be hot.
Seeing the Prodigy was a defining moment in life. I suffered some noteworthy injuries from the mosh pit but ended up 6 people back from the stage. When they played the Outer Space song I threw my arms over the guys on either side and we just screamed the song at the tops of our lungs swaying back and forth. Amazing. I almost cried I think. It was a a moment I had dreamt of since I was like 9 or 10 years old.
Boys Noize was actually kinda shitty live.
LA Riots ROCKED.
The Bloody Beetroots were fucking apeshit. They have the hardest party, I swear its what they told us and it wasn't far from the truth. They are aggressive hard drum and bass. Its angry music and the crowd was riotous so I just slipped in and rioted joyously along with the other maniacs. What fun! I have never heard of them and I was going to leave to go see Stanton Warriors when some one told me I should stay and I'm glad I listened.
I didn't get to see all of Rabbit In the Moon. I had to catch the tram back because the boys left without me. Their new opening was pretty cool. It reminded me of the cult women from the Wickerman. The song was bad ass. The ex boyfirend was there though. He said he was burnt out on it so I thought maybe he didn't do it anymore. But I think... my opinion on the matter was that he was not burnt out on it. I think he just spent too much time fretting about my youth and wanted to protect me from any partying sorts of activities for fear I would get consumed by it and he would lose me to it, even if this meant eliminating these activities from his own life completely as well. I just had this epiphany Friday night. They were setting up and I was text messaging away and this guy was standing at the edge of the stage with his back to me and I looked up and was like damn, nice calves. And then I was like eek! So I just closed my eyes and head bopped to the trancey filler music and did my best to lay low and not open them again until their show started. I miss hanging out with all those guys so much. I miss Steven too. Not dating him, just the quirky entertainment he never seemed to run low on in social situations. He was like the class clown, he conquered social awkwardness with goofiness. If he were in touch with and aware of his self worth he wouldn't be such an insecure asshole. But insecurity leads to possesive behavior, he feels like he has to lock down things to keep them because he doesn't realize in his best form things would naturally just stay around him out of like. But that is all moons ago now. You just have to go with the flow and this is where its taken us.
Hm....
I spent too much money in Miami and that place is fucking bad. I am not scared of other people easily. I hold my own, I generally put off enough bitch vibe to deter the insane ill-intented predator type. But I will say this I walked through the Bronx in the middle of the night lost as hell, first time ever and didn't sweat it a bit. Getting lost in Miami by myself, the shit I went through, scared the bejesus out of me. Fuck Miami, did I say I wanted to live there? Yikes.
19 more days (I think but I suck at math) until the move to NYC. I wish I were there now kind of. I got home today and my parents are baby sitting my cats and my brother has a girl over. I feel kind of hollow. I was depressed when we first got back today now I just feel like nothing, like any little thing could take me either way. If my cats were here and we were snuggling I'd be just fine but since they aren't I feel cold and needy. I could go out with any number of friends tonight but I just want quiet. Ben would be nice right about now. He is the perfect person to snuggle, god that sounds disgusting but he is just laid back enough to be there but to leave me the hell alone except for like a hand at the small of back while I lay next to him on my stomach. I want to say he is obedient but I don't even have to tell him what to do he just reads me (and it doesn't bore me). That sounds great and all but he's not like you'd think. Its hard to explain. I just like him and if our relationship stayed exactly as it is now it could probably go on forever. When I say relationship it's nothing basically. It's a friendship only by threads. Who knows what will happen when I live there. I am scared of where it could go. I dread and long for what's to come but I'd cut all the benefits in a heart beat to keep him my friend or so I think. Standing in front of him might be a different story. He'll probably go out on tour again soon and save me the anxiety.
I think I am going to watch a movie now. I Netflixed 2 weeks ago and I never got around to watching it. It's Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil. I am going to start paying this thing better attention. It's good therapy.