Smoke Free - Day ONE
Oh my goodness, it really is true I have not had a cigarette since yesterday although did light one for my husband this morning at just moments before 9:30am therefore I'm taking that as my start time :
Saturday 27th October 2012 9:30am
Its now ten past eleven at night and I feel ok, a bit achy in limbs, head like thunder which comes and goes but apart from that I have not felt as though I've sprouted two heads or anything so I guess the champix does work in that it blocks the signals that give you the "I need a smoke" feeling, I have had lots of those today but the urge was not so strong that I couldnt resist it, I have resisted and feel proud of myself for it.
I am scared of two things at the moment, the first is becoming addicted to the champix instead of cigarettes. I am wondering whether to just stop taking them as well after the two tablets for Sunday are finished. This would mean that I am not addicted to anything except exercising and loosing weight, have to completely admit to being addicted to mini exercises now and on the days when I do not do them I feel enormous and bloated, unhealthy I suppose. The second thing I'm afraid of is whether I am strong enough to see it through these next few days. The thought of seeing Angelica tomorrow when she gets back from her frozen hiking weekend her face is going to light up when I tell her I have not smoked whilst she has been away, but can I do it the rest of the week?
I keep reminding myself that I have lost an enormous amount of weight this year since February 10th, 64 pounds so far is a massive amount in quite a short space of time too. So if I can do that I feel like I can achieve this as well and be a non smoker for life from today onwards.
I did calculations on how much money I'm saving by going through with quitting and its a shocking amount.
The main reasons for giving up for me are all of equal importance really, but three remain in first place as the ultimate reasons, these are :
health - I want to see out my 40s going into my 50s a picture of health younger than I looked in my late 30s early 40s which never pleased me at all
money - saving the money previously spent on two smokers, well this one speaks for its self really
kids - I want to be around when my kids are growing up and when they are flourishing as adults with their own children and families, I want to be a part of them and they me for a very long time to come
The rest is all just stuff and will come out in the wash as they say. For now though I have to really try hard to stay a non smoker, today felt pretty difficult, tomorrow is probably going to be much worse the next day even more so but then after that I know it should get easier as the peak would have passed already. Looking forward to seeing what the meter reading is on Thursday now, I will stick to this, its a present to myself.
Saturday 27th October 2012 9:30am
Its now ten past eleven at night and I feel ok, a bit achy in limbs, head like thunder which comes and goes but apart from that I have not felt as though I've sprouted two heads or anything so I guess the champix does work in that it blocks the signals that give you the "I need a smoke" feeling, I have had lots of those today but the urge was not so strong that I couldnt resist it, I have resisted and feel proud of myself for it.
I am scared of two things at the moment, the first is becoming addicted to the champix instead of cigarettes. I am wondering whether to just stop taking them as well after the two tablets for Sunday are finished. This would mean that I am not addicted to anything except exercising and loosing weight, have to completely admit to being addicted to mini exercises now and on the days when I do not do them I feel enormous and bloated, unhealthy I suppose. The second thing I'm afraid of is whether I am strong enough to see it through these next few days. The thought of seeing Angelica tomorrow when she gets back from her frozen hiking weekend her face is going to light up when I tell her I have not smoked whilst she has been away, but can I do it the rest of the week?
I keep reminding myself that I have lost an enormous amount of weight this year since February 10th, 64 pounds so far is a massive amount in quite a short space of time too. So if I can do that I feel like I can achieve this as well and be a non smoker for life from today onwards.
I did calculations on how much money I'm saving by going through with quitting and its a shocking amount.
The main reasons for giving up for me are all of equal importance really, but three remain in first place as the ultimate reasons, these are :
health - I want to see out my 40s going into my 50s a picture of health younger than I looked in my late 30s early 40s which never pleased me at all
money - saving the money previously spent on two smokers, well this one speaks for its self really
kids - I want to be around when my kids are growing up and when they are flourishing as adults with their own children and families, I want to be a part of them and they me for a very long time to come
The rest is all just stuff and will come out in the wash as they say. For now though I have to really try hard to stay a non smoker, today felt pretty difficult, tomorrow is probably going to be much worse the next day even more so but then after that I know it should get easier as the peak would have passed already. Looking forward to seeing what the meter reading is on Thursday now, I will stick to this, its a present to myself.