Day 21
ok so this is day 21 and it was so fucking hard. I had to drink boost all three meals but i did it. But dinner came and i freaked. They brought me my tray and it look like so much fucking food i had a panik attack. They tok me out of the room and i sat alone for 30mins. They brought me back in and i started to cry. I did not want to eat. so a few people came to me and supported me while it took 2hrs. to eat not even half of me meal. Then i had to drink half of a boost. But i had to have a cigg to calm me down. So they brught it to me aand it tok me 1hr. to drink it. I came inside to do it so i could talk to cassandra. So oleg came to me and said that he wanted to sit with me tommarow to help me. So me and him a becomming close. Dena, Oleg, and I are planning to get together when we get out of here. Oleg live in SF, Dena in sant cruz. so we are all becomming close. so this is it for now and bye. Oh yay for me the gut told me he loved me, lol. You know who you are, lol, love you too.