Too much positivety
Yea so Ive been too positive in the past few days...what do i have to be positive about? Yea i got a job...wooo something i shouldve fucking had since i got kicked out of school. Yea so its horrible when things start going ur way, and ur mind kicks itself into "look at all this other bad shit" mode. For example...I DO NOTHING! i have like no social life which sucks ass. I mean im not saying i dont have friends, theyre just all at school, well most of them and the ones that arent are always busy, so what do i do with my time? sleep and sit on the couch wasting away my life. A job is just something to keep my mind off of the life that I DONT HAVE. So instead of wasting away and not doing anything with anybody, ill be making money. Not like i have anything to use it for cuz i do nothing. Ill be able to buy a car eventually but oh yea, my dad told me that he can have his car back again cuz im working, and i was like "what, u dont even use it" he was like "now u can buy a car" i was like, i just got a job, im not gonna have 5000 to throw away for a long time, so he said "take out a fucking loan" GREAT! so whatever. I dont know anymore.....im stuck down here alone all the time and its just so boring. Maybe im depressed...i havent been sleeping well, I wake up in the morning like "oh great...another day :\ " Well whatever, i got a job but it doesnt mean im happy, i guess i just hide it well. So here i am, coming out...IM NOT HAPPY!