Thursday.
Dan has told me, insisted in fact, that if I want anything, to just ask him, and if he can afford it, it's mine. I've never really taken advantage of this. The last "expensive" thing he bought me, for no reason, was my chest tattoo, which was $100. That was a surprise, though, I didn't ask for it. That was in January. So I'm thinking of asking him if he'll spring for me to get my hair done by 
mscissorhands. I've heard only raves about her. We'll see. I hate asking, though. I think I should get the whole "Just ask, and it's yours." promise in writing, lol.
Still feeling this weird combo of content and depressed. I should be losing weight, but I'm gaining. I feel like a beached whale. I look like one, too. So disproportionate...
Dan suggested going to Velvet for the 3rd week in a row. But he fell asleep, so we didn't go. I can't figure out why he suddenly wants to go out every week, after over a year of wanting nothing to do with the club scene. And why Thursdays, and not the week-end? I see red-flags everywhere, but I think it's just me projecting my past onto my present... I'm trying hard to block those feelings.
That's it for now.
Oh, and after a year or more of no new hugs (!) on my user info page, I got two in the past week! Thank-you to whoever gave them to me! It's a small thing, but it made me feel all warm & fuzzy inside! :)
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mscissorhands. I've heard only raves about her. We'll see. I hate asking, though. I think I should get the whole "Just ask, and it's yours." promise in writing, lol.
Still feeling this weird combo of content and depressed. I should be losing weight, but I'm gaining. I feel like a beached whale. I look like one, too. So disproportionate...
Dan suggested going to Velvet for the 3rd week in a row. But he fell asleep, so we didn't go. I can't figure out why he suddenly wants to go out every week, after over a year of wanting nothing to do with the club scene. And why Thursdays, and not the week-end? I see red-flags everywhere, but I think it's just me projecting my past onto my present... I'm trying hard to block those feelings.
That's it for now.
Oh, and after a year or more of no new hugs (!) on my user info page, I got two in the past week! Thank-you to whoever gave them to me! It's a small thing, but it made me feel all warm & fuzzy inside! :)
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