Sorry, nothing witty or happy here
Screw it, I'm not going anywhere tonight.
I wanted to, but I'm in a grumpy mood, I don't know who's going, and I don't feel like having to look at Dan's pretty, thin exes (yes, plural!) dancing in front of me all night, especially when he's been AWOL for a week. Add to that, I have literally nothing to wear, because of my stoopid FAT gut. Nothing fits me. Nothing.
So, at least by not going, I save myself $20-$25 (cabs & beer), and some unneeded angst.
The whole weight issue is depressing me far worse than I even let on in here. My self esteem is seriously in the crapper right now. I'm half thinking of skipping Hallowe'en, too. That's how bad it is. :,(+
My phone didn't ring today. Oh, no, wait. My mom called in the morning, and someone called for Chris, who isn't here.Last night my brother said he was coming over today, but he never showed. I kept thinking I should get out of the apartment, but I didn't want to spend any money.
I want to have a shower, but the last bulb in the bathroom blew, so I need to go get replacements. Every bulb in this apartment has blown out since we moved in. I think the total is up to 8 or 9. Crazy. I've only been here about 7 weeks. The kitchen bulb went out, I replaced it, and it blew again a few weeks later! Have I mentioned how the microwave has turned on by itself? Twice? There's definitely something non-corporeal in this apartment. But since I'm here alone, I think I'll just stop talking about it!
Holy gawd am I ever stressed out, but I don't know how to eloquently put it into words. I need to find boxes, and go pack the rest of my house up, so if/when I do find a new place, I can just load the moving van and go... Also, it's getting cold out (duh) and what warmer clothes I do have, are at my old place, gawd knows where. I need my fuzzy black coat! Brrrr!
Anyway, I think I'm just rambling out of boredom now. Griz is "talking" to me. She sounds like Chewbacca, lol! I wish I could put a soundbite on here somehow. I think she's asking to go out, so there's my excuse to sign off. Ciao for now.
**edit**
10 to 2am
I just ordered a pizza online. Yay for being a modern shut-in!
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I wanted to, but I'm in a grumpy mood, I don't know who's going, and I don't feel like having to look at Dan's pretty, thin exes (yes, plural!) dancing in front of me all night, especially when he's been AWOL for a week. Add to that, I have literally nothing to wear, because of my stoopid FAT gut. Nothing fits me. Nothing.
So, at least by not going, I save myself $20-$25 (cabs & beer), and some unneeded angst.
The whole weight issue is depressing me far worse than I even let on in here. My self esteem is seriously in the crapper right now. I'm half thinking of skipping Hallowe'en, too. That's how bad it is. :,(+
My phone didn't ring today. Oh, no, wait. My mom called in the morning, and someone called for Chris, who isn't here.Last night my brother said he was coming over today, but he never showed. I kept thinking I should get out of the apartment, but I didn't want to spend any money.
I want to have a shower, but the last bulb in the bathroom blew, so I need to go get replacements. Every bulb in this apartment has blown out since we moved in. I think the total is up to 8 or 9. Crazy. I've only been here about 7 weeks. The kitchen bulb went out, I replaced it, and it blew again a few weeks later! Have I mentioned how the microwave has turned on by itself? Twice? There's definitely something non-corporeal in this apartment. But since I'm here alone, I think I'll just stop talking about it!
Holy gawd am I ever stressed out, but I don't know how to eloquently put it into words. I need to find boxes, and go pack the rest of my house up, so if/when I do find a new place, I can just load the moving van and go... Also, it's getting cold out (duh) and what warmer clothes I do have, are at my old place, gawd knows where. I need my fuzzy black coat! Brrrr!
Anyway, I think I'm just rambling out of boredom now. Griz is "talking" to me. She sounds like Chewbacca, lol! I wish I could put a soundbite on here somehow. I think she's asking to go out, so there's my excuse to sign off. Ciao for now.
**edit**
10 to 2am
I just ordered a pizza online. Yay for being a modern shut-in!
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