FUBAR Friday and Fratboy & Elixxir's Vow Renewal Saturday
What a fucking nightmare of a weekend I've had. Well, last night, anyway. alxxx369 and I had the mother of all fights. I honestly can't believe the neighbours didn't call the police. It was that bad. He has also set me back years as to how far I'd come from being with my abusive ex. Last night might as well have been Mike screaming at me. I certainly reacted the same way. Shaking, cowering, nearly puking from screaming and crying so hard... What a fucking horrorshow...
At the start of it he'd ripped the keyboard out of my hands, and proceeded to dismantle the computer set-up... All because of money bullshit. From there it became another beast entirely...
Anyway, somehow things are better today, and he set the computer back up earlier. I don't know what to make of last night. I seriously thought about suicide last night. It seems I get under everyone's skin. Even when they are treating me like crap, somehow it's my fault, in the grand scheme of things.
Needless to say, I missed the stagette.. Initially I was waiting for Dan to show, and he was much later than I thought, which ultimately was good, because he walked in as the fight ended. (We were still screaming as he pulled into my driveway!) (He was driving a friend's car.) Chris went off to Funhaus, thank gawd, and Dan stayed for a few hours, and then had to take the car back to his friend. I didn't want him to go.
I really didn't think he'd come back today for the wedding, but he called and said he was on his way, so I was really happy about that. And when he walked through the door...wow. He looked smokin' hawt! We went to Velvet, and what a food spread! I think I could have eaten that stuff for hours. I was telling Dan that he had to come out with me, so people wouldn't think I was making him up, like Snufalupagus, lol! "Yeah, Vanessa, suuuure you're shagging some 22 year old hottie! Riiiight,,," Because no-one ever sees me with him!
So, anyway, now a few people have, and elixxir even took a picture! I hope she either posts it or e-mails it to me! :)+ I saw lots of people I recognized at the wedding, but few I knew well enough to say hello to. I did talk to ravensee, and met tristam08, which was cool. Ari, who I never find even remotely attractive, looked amazing!
And what can I say about elixxir and fratboy? They looked awesome. I want to say Tyler looked dashing, but really, even that word does not do him justice. And Dorothy's blue sparkly veil was unexpected and inspirational! And their vows. Their vows... bellafiga did the official honours, but Dr. Suess was right there in spirit! Lol!
I finally got to see Baby Bunny Steel, aka Tristan! *dies* Sooooo gorgeous! I hope hope hope another six months doesn't go by before i get to see him again! Maybe elixxir will let me just walk along beside the stroller and gawk at his cuteness while she shops or something, lol! Anyhoo, I'm glad I was invited, and I wish I could have stayed longer, but Dan was exhausted and wanted to leave. (POO!)
But now, Dan is aleep in my bed, and I am going to trundle off to Savage! Ha! Maybe some of the wedding party/guests will have migrated over there! It's 11:28pm, So I'm going to get going!
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At the start of it he'd ripped the keyboard out of my hands, and proceeded to dismantle the computer set-up... All because of money bullshit. From there it became another beast entirely...
Anyway, somehow things are better today, and he set the computer back up earlier. I don't know what to make of last night. I seriously thought about suicide last night. It seems I get under everyone's skin. Even when they are treating me like crap, somehow it's my fault, in the grand scheme of things.
Needless to say, I missed the stagette.. Initially I was waiting for Dan to show, and he was much later than I thought, which ultimately was good, because he walked in as the fight ended. (We were still screaming as he pulled into my driveway!) (He was driving a friend's car.) Chris went off to Funhaus, thank gawd, and Dan stayed for a few hours, and then had to take the car back to his friend. I didn't want him to go.
I really didn't think he'd come back today for the wedding, but he called and said he was on his way, so I was really happy about that. And when he walked through the door...wow. He looked smokin' hawt! We went to Velvet, and what a food spread! I think I could have eaten that stuff for hours. I was telling Dan that he had to come out with me, so people wouldn't think I was making him up, like Snufalupagus, lol! "Yeah, Vanessa, suuuure you're shagging some 22 year old hottie! Riiiight,,," Because no-one ever sees me with him!
So, anyway, now a few people have, and elixxir even took a picture! I hope she either posts it or e-mails it to me! :)+ I saw lots of people I recognized at the wedding, but few I knew well enough to say hello to. I did talk to ravensee, and met tristam08, which was cool. Ari, who I never find even remotely attractive, looked amazing!
And what can I say about elixxir and fratboy? They looked awesome. I want to say Tyler looked dashing, but really, even that word does not do him justice. And Dorothy's blue sparkly veil was unexpected and inspirational! And their vows. Their vows... bellafiga did the official honours, but Dr. Suess was right there in spirit! Lol!
I finally got to see Baby Bunny Steel, aka Tristan! *dies* Sooooo gorgeous! I hope hope hope another six months doesn't go by before i get to see him again! Maybe elixxir will let me just walk along beside the stroller and gawk at his cuteness while she shops or something, lol! Anyhoo, I'm glad I was invited, and I wish I could have stayed longer, but Dan was exhausted and wanted to leave. (POO!)
But now, Dan is aleep in my bed, and I am going to trundle off to Savage! Ha! Maybe some of the wedding party/guests will have migrated over there! It's 11:28pm, So I'm going to get going!
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