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i have no idea where i belong anymore. in life in general and as well as a social scene. i guess i dont really care to be in any category anyway, but its strange to feel yourself drift away from those you thought to be closest to you. there are very few i feel i am close to anymore. or that even care to have a relationship with me in the first place.
first and foremost my family means the world to me. and if all others come to fail, i have them as my backbone and know i have meaningful friendships i can rely on with all of them.
i believe that the course of my life may have caused this detatchment from people. im heading down a very different path, its not all about partying and getting fucked up every weekend. no. i dont seem to mind this either, the clarity and sobriety is sort of relieving for a change. and the excitement and amazement of creating and bringing life into this world is all the more wonderful, my life just feels so beautiful now. so peaceful and happy. i enjoy that.
a part of me feels awkward being astranged from a life i found so familiar. but i guess in too many ways, i just cant relate to those people anymore.
everything is gonna be alright.
we all have our lives to live, and im living mine. if it cannot coincide gracefully or is not at the convenience of others, thats just too bad. im not going to compromise my life for anyone. im happy and theyll just have to deal.
first and foremost my family means the world to me. and if all others come to fail, i have them as my backbone and know i have meaningful friendships i can rely on with all of them.
i believe that the course of my life may have caused this detatchment from people. im heading down a very different path, its not all about partying and getting fucked up every weekend. no. i dont seem to mind this either, the clarity and sobriety is sort of relieving for a change. and the excitement and amazement of creating and bringing life into this world is all the more wonderful, my life just feels so beautiful now. so peaceful and happy. i enjoy that.
a part of me feels awkward being astranged from a life i found so familiar. but i guess in too many ways, i just cant relate to those people anymore.
everything is gonna be alright.
we all have our lives to live, and im living mine. if it cannot coincide gracefully or is not at the convenience of others, thats just too bad. im not going to compromise my life for anyone. im happy and theyll just have to deal.