parenting for dummies.
i hate those phone calls. i can feel the hot flash come on and my stress level skyrocket. he drives me crazy. i feel like a broken record, "no. no. no." and his constant, "why?! why?! why?!" i dont feel that i have to justify my feelings anymore. the situation is what it is. deal with it. accept it. compromise?! what is there to compromise? im carrying your child and your an alcoholic who is infact on probation for a DUI, yet goes out to bars EVERY night..and has not shown ANY effort to pay for ANYTHING. you have to be asked. you are almost 23 years old, that is pathetic. and you expect to have rights? ha. youre irresponsible. im frustrated. yuck.
im tired of him comparing how he grew up to the way that his child will. "we need to be friends, its not healthy for our kid for us to be like this." LIKE WHAT?! i am civil and corgil but i dont WANT to be his friend. and i shouldnt have to. he cannot respect or abide by boundaries. everything is so wrong. i wish he would just disappear. i DONT need him for ANYTHING. with my family, and support, i could raise this child hands down with absolutely NO problems if he was gone.
perhaps even BETTER. he IS the problem. im so fuckin' annoyed by him.
what do you do though? when they WANT to be involved? but you know with everything in your soul that they are not capable of such a heavy and time-consuming responsibility. you know.
i dont feel that custody issues will be a problem. its a fact they will be in my favor.
he doesnt want to deal with the govt and the courts. ha. should of thought of that before you lived this lifestyle. he was careless. he could have gotten any girl pregnant. but it was me. lucky me, at least i am capable. and stable-i couldnt imagine if it had been anyone else. who knows. im most postive this wont be the last time.
i love my baby. and i will do everything in my power to make sure they have the best life possible. "dad" is my only challenge at this point. im sure he wont be much to overcome.
i find out the SEX [haha] next week. yay! :]
im tired of him comparing how he grew up to the way that his child will. "we need to be friends, its not healthy for our kid for us to be like this." LIKE WHAT?! i am civil and corgil but i dont WANT to be his friend. and i shouldnt have to. he cannot respect or abide by boundaries. everything is so wrong. i wish he would just disappear. i DONT need him for ANYTHING. with my family, and support, i could raise this child hands down with absolutely NO problems if he was gone.
perhaps even BETTER. he IS the problem. im so fuckin' annoyed by him.
what do you do though? when they WANT to be involved? but you know with everything in your soul that they are not capable of such a heavy and time-consuming responsibility. you know.
i dont feel that custody issues will be a problem. its a fact they will be in my favor.
he doesnt want to deal with the govt and the courts. ha. should of thought of that before you lived this lifestyle. he was careless. he could have gotten any girl pregnant. but it was me. lucky me, at least i am capable. and stable-i couldnt imagine if it had been anyone else. who knows. im most postive this wont be the last time.
i love my baby. and i will do everything in my power to make sure they have the best life possible. "dad" is my only challenge at this point. im sure he wont be much to overcome.
i find out the SEX [haha] next week. yay! :]