Dialogue 8
- "Does it still make you cry at night?"
- "It always will,"
- "Do you think you will ever get over it?"
- "I don't think it's about getting over it, I think it's about learning from it. Making it part of who you are. Absorbing it into yourself so that it is no longer a nagging outside force but rather an experience that has shaped you and is now so blended into who you are that it is indistinguishable from the rest of you."
- "Sure, you can say that, but your profound thought isn't always so functional. I know it's so cliche but it is really easier said than done."
- "Yeah, but I don't care about it anymore, it just doesn't--"
- "What?! You so care about it! If it didn't matter we wouldn't be having this fucking conversation at 3 in the morning after you friggin woke me up! You don't care anymore... Ha! You are so fucking backwards!"
- "You know what?! You're right, okay, you happy now? YOU ARE FUCKING RIGHT! I do care! I wish I didn't but I do! The tears that I still cry quite regularly are little liquid symbols of the pain I'm feeling. I'm empty, I'm fucking empty. I cry because I'm trying to fill the void inside with tears, because the emptiness fucking hurts."
- "I'm sorry I got so mad, I'm tired, go ahead, vent. I'm going to get out of bed and grab a cup of coffee."
- "It's okay, I shouldn't have called. I just really needed someone to talk to."
- "No, no worries. I'm here for you."
- "Thanks, but anyways, I shouldn't feel so empty. I'm too young to have these issues. Aren't I?"
- "Well sometimes age isn't in years. You've experienced a lot of shit in your life, so I guess maybe it is time for you to feel certain things that the rest of us don't."
- "Either way, it sucks ass. I wish I didn't feel like this. I wish I didn't feel like this all the time. I wish that I could meet someone, or discover something inside of me, that could make this better. I tired of temporary better, I know that the good comes with the bad, but it's been a lot of bad lately. I have this idea that college will make things better, and that what I'm looking for is in the college stage of life, not here, not in Beverly Hills, not in high school. But what if it's not better? I don't know what I'm going to do."
- "Fuck! I'm outta coffee!"
- "What? Are you even listening?!"
- "I said that I'm outta coffee. I was listening to what you were saying, I just need coffee if we are going to keep talking."
- "Well can you meet me at Swingers in like 20 minutes?"
- "Sure. I guess. Okay."
- "Okay I'll see you there. Dont fall back asleep!"
- "I won't, I won't. See you there,"
- "Bye, thanks for waking up for me"
- "No problem. Bye."
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- "It always will,"
- "Do you think you will ever get over it?"
- "I don't think it's about getting over it, I think it's about learning from it. Making it part of who you are. Absorbing it into yourself so that it is no longer a nagging outside force but rather an experience that has shaped you and is now so blended into who you are that it is indistinguishable from the rest of you."
- "Sure, you can say that, but your profound thought isn't always so functional. I know it's so cliche but it is really easier said than done."
- "Yeah, but I don't care about it anymore, it just doesn't--"
- "What?! You so care about it! If it didn't matter we wouldn't be having this fucking conversation at 3 in the morning after you friggin woke me up! You don't care anymore... Ha! You are so fucking backwards!"
- "You know what?! You're right, okay, you happy now? YOU ARE FUCKING RIGHT! I do care! I wish I didn't but I do! The tears that I still cry quite regularly are little liquid symbols of the pain I'm feeling. I'm empty, I'm fucking empty. I cry because I'm trying to fill the void inside with tears, because the emptiness fucking hurts."
- "I'm sorry I got so mad, I'm tired, go ahead, vent. I'm going to get out of bed and grab a cup of coffee."
- "It's okay, I shouldn't have called. I just really needed someone to talk to."
- "No, no worries. I'm here for you."
- "Thanks, but anyways, I shouldn't feel so empty. I'm too young to have these issues. Aren't I?"
- "Well sometimes age isn't in years. You've experienced a lot of shit in your life, so I guess maybe it is time for you to feel certain things that the rest of us don't."
- "Either way, it sucks ass. I wish I didn't feel like this. I wish I didn't feel like this all the time. I wish that I could meet someone, or discover something inside of me, that could make this better. I tired of temporary better, I know that the good comes with the bad, but it's been a lot of bad lately. I have this idea that college will make things better, and that what I'm looking for is in the college stage of life, not here, not in Beverly Hills, not in high school. But what if it's not better? I don't know what I'm going to do."
- "Fuck! I'm outta coffee!"
- "What? Are you even listening?!"
- "I said that I'm outta coffee. I was listening to what you were saying, I just need coffee if we are going to keep talking."
- "Well can you meet me at Swingers in like 20 minutes?"
- "Sure. I guess. Okay."
- "Okay I'll see you there. Dont fall back asleep!"
- "I won't, I won't. See you there,"
- "Bye, thanks for waking up for me"
- "No problem. Bye."
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