Suffocating Outside
I feel like I'm suffocating in my life, well at least the way it is at the moment. I saw two movies that pushed me over the edge...
"United States of Leland" on TV, and "Brokeback Mountain" in theatres.
I really liked "US of L", it just reassured me that the world we live in is one fucked up place. I personally believe that the place where I am in my life right now feel as shitty as Leland saw the world: as a sad and hopeless place.
"Brokeback Mountain", yes the so-called Gay Cowboy Movie, was inspirational. There are not many gay love stories like this one, and being a "Label Free" boy myself, it showed me that there can be love on that side of the fence too... The movie itself was AMAZING for the first hour, and only 1/2 of the second hour was any good. I give it 3.75 stars, but I'm really critical! Is it just me or do we think Jake G. may be less straight than he presents himself, I dunno, I didn't get that vibe for Heath L. Just my opinion, don't worry girls, I think he's more like me than a full blast homosexual... we can share. I just wish I could have what they did, with a woman or a man... Then I thought to myself I'm only 17, no matter how mature I might be, I'm still only 17.
Which brings me to the whole suffocating thing... I think I've pretty much completed my high school experiences minus prom and graduation. I feel like this chapter in my life should be ending faster, not that I want to get old or anything... I just feel like what I long for is in the next stage. The fake ID helps me go places where I meet people from the "Real World of Grown Ups" , lol. I just can't wait for the next chapter, where I will have some insane experiences, being open minded really broadens your experiences.
"United States of Leland" on TV, and "Brokeback Mountain" in theatres.
I really liked "US of L", it just reassured me that the world we live in is one fucked up place. I personally believe that the place where I am in my life right now feel as shitty as Leland saw the world: as a sad and hopeless place.
"Brokeback Mountain", yes the so-called Gay Cowboy Movie, was inspirational. There are not many gay love stories like this one, and being a "Label Free" boy myself, it showed me that there can be love on that side of the fence too... The movie itself was AMAZING for the first hour, and only 1/2 of the second hour was any good. I give it 3.75 stars, but I'm really critical! Is it just me or do we think Jake G. may be less straight than he presents himself, I dunno, I didn't get that vibe for Heath L. Just my opinion, don't worry girls, I think he's more like me than a full blast homosexual... we can share. I just wish I could have what they did, with a woman or a man... Then I thought to myself I'm only 17, no matter how mature I might be, I'm still only 17.
Which brings me to the whole suffocating thing... I think I've pretty much completed my high school experiences minus prom and graduation. I feel like this chapter in my life should be ending faster, not that I want to get old or anything... I just feel like what I long for is in the next stage. The fake ID helps me go places where I meet people from the "Real World of Grown Ups" , lol. I just can't wait for the next chapter, where I will have some insane experiences, being open minded really broadens your experiences.