On the boat sailing the river of life
So after 2 months hiatus, the itch to write is back. Actually, I never went anywhere. Almost without fails, I would hang around Lj everday and life has pretty much stayed the same: namely indulging in unhealthy and atrocious, habits and addictions. And I don't mean no drugs, moi is your average law abiding citizen. So I'm off chasing another endogenous morphine high. BOO! Did I catch you rising eyebrows at the word morphine? Ha ha, I caught myself too actually... I meant to type endorphin and wikipedia kindly spell out "endogenous morphine" and the latter sound very naughty, so I included it, meh. So you see, it's all fairly innocent *nod head*. And how do I go about chasing it? Well, by my interests of course.
Anyway, I just wanted to muse about the irony that is my existence. Sometime back, I was quite obsessed with the idea of smoking (plain tobacco cigs, nothing nefarious and outlawed in some states). So many times I caught myself having the impulse to buy and smoke. And I imagined myself enjoying smokin plenty of times. That's just it though, an imagination; because (outrageously) I can't stand the smell of smoke! Oh the irony of it. And the dichotomy of my thought and reality doesn't just end there. I want to drink beer but I generally hate the taste of it and irritatingly, they don't come cheap where I am (I don't like wine either, but other spirits are fair game. THNK goodness). I want to have a tat and has been since 3 yrs back. Problem is I'm afraid of complications. I want multiple piercings! Yet I'm afraid my parents will hit the roof seeing me like that. So all the curbed desires... Though to be honest, I got enough inspiration from the manga, novels, movies and tv dramas I've read and watched. So maybe I'm just impressionable.
But thankfully, I'm still allowed to dream. So in another life, these are what I wanna do: get a tongue piercing. Maybe a Prince Albert would be extreme. But a guiche is a must. I've read (forget where exactly) that a pierce tongue give a fantastic BJ (give and take principle man). Next, I want a tat on the hip near the crotch. It should be a lizard like the one sported by my fav char Bun from Walker Universe manga. A tribal band tat around the upper arm would be good too. To finish off, a twisted vine tattoo below the waist across the lower back from hip to hip that dip down to the crack of the ass in an inverted triangle of simple, striking lines (Fish & Chips, 2010) should perfect the ensemble. Actually I also want an interlocking male symbols (if it ain't too gay) but I can't think of where to put it yet. These should suffice for physical accessories.
In the topic of enjoying life, I just want to appreciate the occasional gulps of beer and drags of smoke. Life can't be to kosher before it gets borin. I still won't do drugs; they are just not worth the trouble. Besides all that, there needs to be a few years of pretty wild life "sampling the pond" in college.