Why has the Sandman forsaken me?
My sleep schedule is soooo fucked up. I've been waking up at 5pm and going to sleep at 9-10am. The day before, my aunt wakes me up at 10am(I went to bed at 5am) and we all go do some errands and get lunch. I am exhausted when we get home but I stay awake because I figured I'd spend some time on the net as I have been ignoring it for sleep and Wii(I borrowed Billys! Thanks hun!) I'm so sleepy that I start whining at Paul and getting loopy. I get to sleep at like 10pm.
Guess what time I wake up?
5pm.
Yeah. I slept like 19 hours. I did something similar late last week too. I start to think that I'm finally going to cycle back around and then I sleep for 15 hours, apparently making up the hours I had been sniping from myself to play Wii.
Poor Paul. I'm a shitty girlfriend. I've depressed him because I've apparently been in an annoyed and irritated mood for days. I didn't realize I had been for that long, most of it I got over pretty quickly but apparently it still affected him. He tries so hard to make me happy and then when I'm in a bad mood he feels like he's failed and it upsets him that he isn't making me happy.
Last night(or was it the night before now?) I was in a shitty mood right before we went to sleep because Paul told me he was going to order me a new computer, and it was spiffy, my response was YAY! When? Tomorrow. Merlin was loaning him the money and Paul was going to pay him back over the next few weeks. I prompted him, what about my new lenses?(last week we got my eyes checked, I need new ones, I'm 30%worse then the lenses I'm using) He told me I would have to choose, lenses or computer. Annnnnd there went my good but loopy mood. That was a choice that I didn't want to have to make for myself. I'm a big baby. I wanted that computer but I need the lenses. So I had to choose lenses and it put me in a craptastic mood. Actually, more then that Nicodemus needs another trip to the vet for more meds and I'm not sure if he has to go back in for a checkup. The Meds are cheap, the visit not as much. He is top on my list and my new glasses are #2. If it had been a choice between vet trip or computer I wouldn't have taken it hard at all. My baby needs the vet trip, but that wasn't where my mind was at the time.
Not just the vet and lenses, but it's Halloween. I need another set of fangs(not that I'm going to be a vampire, I just always have a set of fangs and act retarded with them all during the year), I want some short elf ears so I can add them to my ren-fair outfit, but I also want a big bottle of liquid latex and we need zombie bits. Halloween. I look forward to it more the Christmas. Especially now that I'm older and Christmas just isn't as fun, Halloween isn't either but god damn it, I like dressing up and playing pretend! Seriously, I feel like singing "This is Halloween" and prancing around. I would indeed put off buying a new pc in order to have a fun Halloween. Which is going to be the case. Now, here's hoping that my friends are going to do the usual party and I will have a place to be a zombie at. I really don't want to go out to some bar or something, but I will if that's the only place I get to dress up.
Oh god, now it's 6am. I know I'm going to be woken up today because my aunt wants us to clean the house in preparation of my Maw-maw coming to visit, and her ADD is worse then mine, there is no focus there. :/
Guess what time I wake up?
5pm.
Yeah. I slept like 19 hours. I did something similar late last week too. I start to think that I'm finally going to cycle back around and then I sleep for 15 hours, apparently making up the hours I had been sniping from myself to play Wii.
Poor Paul. I'm a shitty girlfriend. I've depressed him because I've apparently been in an annoyed and irritated mood for days. I didn't realize I had been for that long, most of it I got over pretty quickly but apparently it still affected him. He tries so hard to make me happy and then when I'm in a bad mood he feels like he's failed and it upsets him that he isn't making me happy.
Last night(or was it the night before now?) I was in a shitty mood right before we went to sleep because Paul told me he was going to order me a new computer, and it was spiffy, my response was YAY! When? Tomorrow. Merlin was loaning him the money and Paul was going to pay him back over the next few weeks. I prompted him, what about my new lenses?(last week we got my eyes checked, I need new ones, I'm 30%worse then the lenses I'm using) He told me I would have to choose, lenses or computer. Annnnnd there went my good but loopy mood. That was a choice that I didn't want to have to make for myself. I'm a big baby. I wanted that computer but I need the lenses. So I had to choose lenses and it put me in a craptastic mood. Actually, more then that Nicodemus needs another trip to the vet for more meds and I'm not sure if he has to go back in for a checkup. The Meds are cheap, the visit not as much. He is top on my list and my new glasses are #2. If it had been a choice between vet trip or computer I wouldn't have taken it hard at all. My baby needs the vet trip, but that wasn't where my mind was at the time.
Not just the vet and lenses, but it's Halloween. I need another set of fangs(not that I'm going to be a vampire, I just always have a set of fangs and act retarded with them all during the year), I want some short elf ears so I can add them to my ren-fair outfit, but I also want a big bottle of liquid latex and we need zombie bits. Halloween. I look forward to it more the Christmas. Especially now that I'm older and Christmas just isn't as fun, Halloween isn't either but god damn it, I like dressing up and playing pretend! Seriously, I feel like singing "This is Halloween" and prancing around. I would indeed put off buying a new pc in order to have a fun Halloween. Which is going to be the case. Now, here's hoping that my friends are going to do the usual party and I will have a place to be a zombie at. I really don't want to go out to some bar or something, but I will if that's the only place I get to dress up.
Oh god, now it's 6am. I know I'm going to be woken up today because my aunt wants us to clean the house in preparation of my Maw-maw coming to visit, and her ADD is worse then mine, there is no focus there. :/