What's next?!
Apparently, my father's girlfriend is moving into our house. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT ABOUT?!
They've been dating for four months! Four months! Isn't that a little quick? So now, this new woman that I don't trust as far as I can throw her is going to be living in my house, eating my food, and touching all of my stuff! Isn't that a little soon? I don't even know this woman! I haven't been given enough time to even start to trust her. Now she's moving in? So now, whenever I want some alone time with my father, she'll be around. I'll have to be on guard 24/7 while I'm in my own fucking house!
What's worse is that this was my father's idea. He knows damn well how hard it is for me to let my guard down around new people. He's forcing me to spend time with a woman that I'm not sure I even like very much yet. What about me? Don't I get a say?
Apparently not.
So now, I have nowhere to stay when I visit Phoenix, except for my mother's house in Chandler. But then I'll be alone, so what's the point? I like staying in my father's house. I grew up there. I feel comfortable there. I don't have to constantly keep the wall up in front of strangers.
Not anymore!
Fuck. I am so goddamn angry right now that I could kill. I want to scream. In fact, I am screaming. A lot. And in several different languages.
My house is not a home. I've been abandoned by the one man I thought would never abandon me. Great way to start out the week. Seriously, what's next? I'm this close to just saying "fuck it!" to everything and leaving this whole damn place behind.
Just a few months to graduation. . . just a few more months and I can get the fuck out of here. Now I just have to find a job that will let me get the fuck out of this whole damn country and start over.
~Nacht Val
"If I could sleep forever, I forget about everything." -The Dandy Warhols
They've been dating for four months! Four months! Isn't that a little quick? So now, this new woman that I don't trust as far as I can throw her is going to be living in my house, eating my food, and touching all of my stuff! Isn't that a little soon? I don't even know this woman! I haven't been given enough time to even start to trust her. Now she's moving in? So now, whenever I want some alone time with my father, she'll be around. I'll have to be on guard 24/7 while I'm in my own fucking house!
What's worse is that this was my father's idea. He knows damn well how hard it is for me to let my guard down around new people. He's forcing me to spend time with a woman that I'm not sure I even like very much yet. What about me? Don't I get a say?
Apparently not.
So now, I have nowhere to stay when I visit Phoenix, except for my mother's house in Chandler. But then I'll be alone, so what's the point? I like staying in my father's house. I grew up there. I feel comfortable there. I don't have to constantly keep the wall up in front of strangers.
Not anymore!
Fuck. I am so goddamn angry right now that I could kill. I want to scream. In fact, I am screaming. A lot. And in several different languages.
My house is not a home. I've been abandoned by the one man I thought would never abandon me. Great way to start out the week. Seriously, what's next? I'm this close to just saying "fuck it!" to everything and leaving this whole damn place behind.
Just a few months to graduation. . . just a few more months and I can get the fuck out of here. Now I just have to find a job that will let me get the fuck out of this whole damn country and start over.
~Nacht Val
"If I could sleep forever, I forget about everything." -The Dandy Warhols