scared
need to take it one step at a time.. i'm really just losing track of my priorities.. i really don't know why i cant think straight anymore.. i mean.. there was once a time when school was on the top of my list.. i focused on it so much... and then.. i dunno whats wrong with me.. i mean.. i goto skool 2 out of 5 days a week.. and i cant stop myself.. i mean i could.. but my head.. its just.. i'm so confused. I can feel myself slipping into it more and more.. *sighs* i wanna get help.. thats the only reason i called to prevent myself from doing something seriously stupid.. and i wanna thank you sam.. no matter what.. you're always there for me.. and i just.. thanks.. I really dont know what to do anymore though.. it hurts everytime I think about it.. and I try not to.. but.. when one thing leaves.. another thing enters my mind.. and it just.. it's hard to all keep track of and just be optimistic about everything. I really am afraid of what I'm gonna do if another bad thing happens..