Irony: An occurrence, result, or circumstance notable for such incongruity.
i'm getting so frustrated and i'm now feeling anger and hatred at the moment. certain people know how betrayed i feel.. and i'm just so angry with myself for letting my guard down and it's like I set myself up or something. Pisses me off. I'm so angry right now. But I'm serious.. the shift of dependence from my friends to my dad is completely ironic to me. I mean.. I went to spending everyday with my friends.. a couple in particular.. and for one of them to let me down.. especially when I was that vulnerable and depressed.. I dunno.. I'm not pissed.. It's just Im dissapointed in myself. I knew what type of person they are.. but I refused to believe that it would ever happen to me. and what do you know.. it did. I did do something wrong.. I apologized.. now all i'm gonna do is just whatevers. I no longer am gonna rely on anyone anymore.. I'm sorry.. but this.. it's just god. I honestly can't wait to leave this place now. For Christmas, I want to go to Virginia now.. Any chance I get.. I will leave Alhambra. I hate this place now. I have no one.. and nothing that makes me wanna stay. I'm thankful for all the friends that were there by my side whenever I needed you guys... Le.. Minh.. & Sam I'm so thankful for you guys.. u have no idea. I could always depend on you guys and well.. you know how difficult things are going now. I mean.. I have to find another place to live or else I'm gonna stay at a fucking shelter.. or "family home" is what they call it. And I don't plan on stayin in one. I'd rather die. I seriously will. I dont give a shit about my life anymore.. the only reason I am is cuz my father is doing so much for me. This depression shit of mine has sunk to another level.. but I'm getting help. I refuse to let this get to me and I'm pissed at myself for doing this to myself. but yea.. i will stick by my promises and do what i said. need to get my priorities in order