On the Road to Recovery
I'm still sick, but I'm feeling good enough to update this again. Yesterday I was completely out of commission and even had to miss work!!!! I think CC was working too, so I'm super sad about that. I'm going to do my best to be there tonight, I can't miss two nights in a row, especially a Friday night. But the good news is that my school called today and evidently Emma and Laura, the girls I'm in miniterm with, have really missed me a lot while I've been gone and are going to visit me at Geo's sometime. That would be really nice, I would feel slightly less like a worthless outcast if they paid me a visit. I know that my happiness shouldn't lie within the arms of other people, but hey, this stuff really makes my days special. Anyhoo, I've lost a lot of weight since I've been sick because I couldn't keep much food down, so I look like one of those starving Ethiopian kids now. I was skinny enough before, now I'm just gross, not really feeling too good about that at all. Oh well, guys weren't interested before anyway, and it may just be that I'm dehydrated. Hmmm what else....I work with Rion tonight, I really want to get to feeling better so that I can get to work and talk to him...I haven't talked to him online in a long time and I'm really worried about him, he's usually on quite a bit...I'm almost done with the calligraphy I was doing for him. If i hadn't missed school I would definitely have it done by now. Hopefully I'll have it ready by Sunday. I just hope he won't think I'm some crazy stalker or anything. I just want to be his friend is all, a listening ear when he needs it. I've also been nominated for The National Honors Society at school for scholarship, leadership, service and christian character, that is really falttering, but crazy too. I'm a pessimist who has struggled with depression for many years, I didn't see myself as much of a candidate, but someone thought I was worthy I suppose. As you can see, my life is super boring, so I shall call this entry finished. Cheers!