I am just not in the best of moods....
I am sorry for this entry but I am tired of people tellin me that they are going to talk to me or get back to me and they just plain ignore me. WTH I am in my home town and there is no one here who gives two shits about me. They claim to but no there is no truth to it. If it were true they would call me back when I try to get ahold of them time after time. I am very angry at people if you can not tell. And well...I am going to leave it at that.
I am moving back to Muncie next year to go back to my beloved college Ball State University. I miss it entirely too much. I am going to transfer my job if possible...if not well then I guess I will have to find a new one. And to be honest...I dont mind at all because I would rather not work in the mall if I can help it. Plus, clothing is not the best place to work when you are wanting to SAVE money. But I now have clothes that fit and well still losing the weight which is real exciting.
Katelyn is doing great. She is talking more and more and she is getting so big. I actually cant wait to get her into a daycare hopefully next semester. I really am getting sick of this picking her up from my mom's smoke filled house. It didnt bother me at first because I hadnt been around it in sooo long but now I just can stand it. All I have to do is stand in there for two minutes (where they dont even smoke by the way) and smell like it when I leave. I go to work and school smelling like a smoke stack. And I can not wait to get my daughter out of that environment. Sometimes I ask myself why I do this to my family....I knew I should have never asked them to babysit on a regular basis. This is rediculous. Then they expect ME to go in that room and hang out when my asthma is getting worse because I didnt that for a short period of time. OMG!
Oh yea and other news, Anthony are talking again and working things out. He is sending us money and now I am taking her to see him. My family...especially my mother doesnt know that yet. I didnt want her to pay for the divorce because she already bought me a computer and a car and well she wanted to pay for my divorce and yea I know that she is going to hold that shit over my head as it is. And now that I am talking to Anthony again she is not going to like that. But if she tries to bring up the fact that she has done this all for me as it is...I will hand her the keys to the car and give her back the computer if she is going to base her love on material things. Because I was thinking about it and talking to one of my professors and he said the same thing, that if she is going to help me just because I am not with him anymore then she doesnt really truely LOVE me....she just wants to CONTROL me and my life. And I see truth to that because she has never done anything to except that fact that Anthony and I are family and well...I was sick of being torn between my family and my husband, which is the major reason we were having so much trouble in our marriage. I am going to say screw it and people are either A going to except the fact or B they will never have to worry about their so called "sister","daughter" ever again. Because it is my life to be lived and I am going to give them the chance to be a part of it once my family is built back up on good terms again. And I think we have an awesome start. So yea...I have to take a phone call now. Talk to you laters!
I am moving back to Muncie next year to go back to my beloved college Ball State University. I miss it entirely too much. I am going to transfer my job if possible...if not well then I guess I will have to find a new one. And to be honest...I dont mind at all because I would rather not work in the mall if I can help it. Plus, clothing is not the best place to work when you are wanting to SAVE money. But I now have clothes that fit and well still losing the weight which is real exciting.
Katelyn is doing great. She is talking more and more and she is getting so big. I actually cant wait to get her into a daycare hopefully next semester. I really am getting sick of this picking her up from my mom's smoke filled house. It didnt bother me at first because I hadnt been around it in sooo long but now I just can stand it. All I have to do is stand in there for two minutes (where they dont even smoke by the way) and smell like it when I leave. I go to work and school smelling like a smoke stack. And I can not wait to get my daughter out of that environment. Sometimes I ask myself why I do this to my family....I knew I should have never asked them to babysit on a regular basis. This is rediculous. Then they expect ME to go in that room and hang out when my asthma is getting worse because I didnt that for a short period of time. OMG!
Oh yea and other news, Anthony are talking again and working things out. He is sending us money and now I am taking her to see him. My family...especially my mother doesnt know that yet. I didnt want her to pay for the divorce because she already bought me a computer and a car and well she wanted to pay for my divorce and yea I know that she is going to hold that shit over my head as it is. And now that I am talking to Anthony again she is not going to like that. But if she tries to bring up the fact that she has done this all for me as it is...I will hand her the keys to the car and give her back the computer if she is going to base her love on material things. Because I was thinking about it and talking to one of my professors and he said the same thing, that if she is going to help me just because I am not with him anymore then she doesnt really truely LOVE me....she just wants to CONTROL me and my life. And I see truth to that because she has never done anything to except that fact that Anthony and I are family and well...I was sick of being torn between my family and my husband, which is the major reason we were having so much trouble in our marriage. I am going to say screw it and people are either A going to except the fact or B they will never have to worry about their so called "sister","daughter" ever again. Because it is my life to be lived and I am going to give them the chance to be a part of it once my family is built back up on good terms again. And I think we have an awesome start. So yea...I have to take a phone call now. Talk to you laters!