In class
So it is Wednesday night and I am in class. It hasnt even barely started and I am ready to go to sleep. I know that it is a hard calss but yea....I know that I should be paying attention because it is really confusing crap and we have a quiz next class over this info. But most of the class is not getting it either and I am not too worried about it. BUT on the other hand, I still want to do well. I really must go now but I need to get something off of my chest first.
I told my sister that I am talking to Anthony and going back to Ball State because IUPUI sucks. i miss Ball State and the only reason that I am here at IUPUI is because of what happened with me and Anthony. Now that we are working things out I believe that it is only going to get better from here on out. But I think "THE" conversation is going to take place tonight because my sister knows about what is going thru my head. And all I have to say is that they have not heard both sides and that it is my life and if they want to never help me again I will say fine. but that is their choice. I vow that I will no longer be torn between my family and the family that I created. I love my families sooo much but I will not go through this. that is a big part of what broke Anthony's and my marriage in the first place. BUT I am not rushing into anything with him either becuse we are repairing what we have lost with one another. I am so glad for that. But my sister said ONCE A CHEATER ALWAYS A CHEATER....and SHE is a CHEATER herself....But her arguement to that is that it is different when women cheat. WHAT THE!? NO IT IS NOT! When a woman cheats it is most likely because she has fallen out of love with who she is with and the men just do it for sex PLUS he never actually did anything with the woman. So yea...anyway....we are rebuilding our love and trust. Not dwelling on the past is the key in most cases if not all! OY! I am not trying to justify my thinking I am trying to show everyone what I am thinking. grrr. I am not making much sense....gtg anyway...gotta take notes!!!
I told my sister that I am talking to Anthony and going back to Ball State because IUPUI sucks. i miss Ball State and the only reason that I am here at IUPUI is because of what happened with me and Anthony. Now that we are working things out I believe that it is only going to get better from here on out. But I think "THE" conversation is going to take place tonight because my sister knows about what is going thru my head. And all I have to say is that they have not heard both sides and that it is my life and if they want to never help me again I will say fine. but that is their choice. I vow that I will no longer be torn between my family and the family that I created. I love my families sooo much but I will not go through this. that is a big part of what broke Anthony's and my marriage in the first place. BUT I am not rushing into anything with him either becuse we are repairing what we have lost with one another. I am so glad for that. But my sister said ONCE A CHEATER ALWAYS A CHEATER....and SHE is a CHEATER herself....But her arguement to that is that it is different when women cheat. WHAT THE!? NO IT IS NOT! When a woman cheats it is most likely because she has fallen out of love with who she is with and the men just do it for sex PLUS he never actually did anything with the woman. So yea...anyway....we are rebuilding our love and trust. Not dwelling on the past is the key in most cases if not all! OY! I am not trying to justify my thinking I am trying to show everyone what I am thinking. grrr. I am not making much sense....gtg anyway...gotta take notes!!!