Once A Day.
I think it's good for me to write. I got a reading done today that said I was meant to do something creative- which I've always known. But, then it said that I was meant to be a writer. I think I've always been pretty good about writing my feelings down, and I think I should write once a day.
I realize that if I just take myself out of the situations I'm in, and look at them from the outside that they're really not so bad. When someone asks me about Anton and I jerk-reaction answer, it's that I love him. I know he's a good person. He supports me and Cambria financially, and I know he does his best to be there for me. His schedule doesn't always allow him to be awake, and be the best person he can be. Maybe it's not him that isn't doing enough... Maybe it's me that's expecting too much. I know that the last four men that I've been with have let me go because I've suffocated them for attention. I need to start learning to make MYSELF happy. I need a hobby. Keep painting, keep writing, keep singing, keep playing. I need to play with Cambria more. She's my life, and I'm not ENJOYING that life.
Just keep breathing, Steph. It'll all blow over soon.
I realize that if I just take myself out of the situations I'm in, and look at them from the outside that they're really not so bad. When someone asks me about Anton and I jerk-reaction answer, it's that I love him. I know he's a good person. He supports me and Cambria financially, and I know he does his best to be there for me. His schedule doesn't always allow him to be awake, and be the best person he can be. Maybe it's not him that isn't doing enough... Maybe it's me that's expecting too much. I know that the last four men that I've been with have let me go because I've suffocated them for attention. I need to start learning to make MYSELF happy. I need a hobby. Keep painting, keep writing, keep singing, keep playing. I need to play with Cambria more. She's my life, and I'm not ENJOYING that life.
Just keep breathing, Steph. It'll all blow over soon.