Backstage Pass (Chapter 4/4) ByouxUruha
Title: Backstage Pass
Chapters: 4/4
Author: mypaperdoll1611
Genre: Yaoi, Smut, Slice of Life
Warnings: usual Yaoi stuffs
Ratings: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: ByouxUruha (main), AoixUruha (one-sided)
Band: the GazettE, ScReW
Summary: I chose to dream more than to love, the pain that was destined to bear fruit. At the back of the grace of thy name, I discard every hope for our eternity. There shouldn’t be another wound to bleed, for every drop of my blood was already drained. Our path should separate from now on. I’m just a moth attracted to that dangerous fire. My wings had already taken off. No one could stop this blooming bud even those promises that once nurtured me.
Disclaimer: This story is purely fiction. Events and characters similar to tru people are purely coincidence especially with Byou and Uruha. *laughs*
Comments: 'SHIVER' lyrics translation credits to gazette_lyrics Yes, this is supposedly 5 chapters but it unexpectedly end on the fourth. I'm sorry.
Previous:
[1] [2] [3]
Latest:
[LAST SONG: Shiver]
♪Even if an endless sadness steals you away, say your heart won't get separated (from me).♪
A warm morning greeted him as he slowly removed his palm covering his small eyes. Uruha couldn’t help but to smile as he noticed the finely built arms wrapped around his body. The two of them were both naked and only covered with a sheet of blanket.
“Nnnn… Byou, more…” Uruha blushed as he remembered that passionate night between him and the other. Uruha couldn’t endure to deprive every part with a kiss. He closed his eyes and slowly leaned to touch the other’s lips. All of those painful memories, the longings, and the heartaches faded as if those were just nightmares as their contact slowly departed.
“I love you, Kojima,” Uruha slowly opened his eyes and were surprised to see the other awake and smiling.
“I love you too, Kouyou,” Byou pinned down Uruha, keeping his dominance on the bed. “And we will always be together from now on,” he smiled as he granted Uruha a deep and long kiss. His hands traveled to the other’s member as he savored Uruha’s neck by his mouth.
Uruha let Byou to colonize his body and wrapped his arm around him. Suddenly, a painful memory shook him. How can he be this unfair to Aoi, the person who always been his refuge, his protector and his savior. Before grasping this happiness, Uruha must prioritize what is right or he may end up hurting Aoi and ruining the band.
“I feel guilty for Aoi,” those words unintentionally escaped from his lips. “I don’t want him to be miserable because of me,” he bit his lips when he finally noticed that Byou paused and stared at him. “Ummm…”
♪ I wonder at your back that's running away what shape will tomorrow have. I didn't want to forget again the belief that nothing could make me shiver.♪
Byou moved and sat down at the edge of the bed. Uruha was alarmed as he tried to lessen their gap but was stopped as Byou looked back at him and smiled, “Of course, Aoi…” he looked down. “We have a practice today. Actually, I’ve been skipping practice these past few days,” they held each other’s hand. “Let’s come to the studio together. Well, I mean as a… couple.”
Uruha inhaled some air and cleared his mind before giving his short but favorable answer, “Yeah, I’m also free today. I think I would like to watch someone’s rehearsal.”
Byou had the cutest smile that time, “Thank you.” He pinched Uruha’s cheeks and ran to the bathroom, dancing of joy. To be welcomed and accepted in Uruha’s life once again, he never thought that life could be this compassionate.
“Alright! From now on, I have to do my best!” Uruha cheered himself. He knew for himself that he is changing bit by bit. He couldn’t stay lame as he had always been. He couldn’t be afraid and stay on Yune’s shadow forever. It’s all in the past. He must be strong and not let those unnecessary emotions to conquer him. Aoi is an important person. He is a very special person. Uruha could admit that. He’s been always there to protect and comfort him but Uruha couldn’t deny that it’s different from what he feels towards Byou. It’s more superior, more complicated and more fragile. Just a single hug, a single kiss and even just a mere glance of Byou is enough to wash all those painful memories, the doubts, and the hesitations. For now, what he really needs the most is Byou’s company.
Aoi might have some mental telepathy as if he knew that he’s the one running on Uruha’s mind right now. The LED of Uruha’s phone began to flicker as the default ringtone hymned a melody inside the room. Uruha picked up his call with the most energetic voice he could offer.
“Good morning Ao-”
“Where are you?” Aoi’s voice is a mixture of worry, displeased, hatred, or maybe simply anger. “I’ve been looking for you. Where are you, Uruha?”
“Aoi… I am in a… hotel,” Uruha must not trigger Aoi’s anger. He knew Aoi became a different person, a violent one when he’s angry. It’s his deepest fear.
“With whom?” Aoi’s tone is now interrogating and accusing as if Uruha has done something sinful and immoral.
“I am… all by myself,” he lied.
Uruha could hear Aoi sighed, maybe for a relief that he was alone and not together with Byou. He might be worrying all night that they’re been working out their relationship and finally together. Little that Aoi knows that all his fears have already came true.
“Oh, give me the address. I’m going to pick you up,” Aoi became a little bit cheerful. “Let’s have breakfast together, okay?”
“Aoi, I can’t. I have something important to do. Ah… I have an interview so…” Uruha clenched his fists. He couldn’t take his lies anymore. “How about lunch?”
“Hmmm… okay. See you later then. I love you.”
Byou couldn’t appear at the worst possible timing like that moment but he did, “Ah, I’m done. You could use the shower now.”
♪The habit of averting your eyes, your ambiguous answers and your unlaughable lies, if I cannot be next to them, then even meaning goes blur.♪
“Oi Uruha, who’s that-”
“Ah, I’m sorry Aoi. That’s the cleaner. I’m going to hang up now. My phone is dying. Later!” Uruha turned off his cell phone. He knew that Aoi would dial again for sure.
Uruha wasn’t numb of Byou’s pain during his conversation with Aoi but he couldn’t help it. He needed a right timing to be able to fix things. Byou still hasn’t said anything but just dried his hair using a blower. He’s wearing a robe that time, facing away from the other. Uruha put down his phone and ran to him, hugging Byou tightly as he could. Byou just laughed and teased Uruha to take a shower. His standing member was thrusting against his robe. Uruha blushed of embarrassment about forgetting that he’s still naked. He quickly took a bath and borrowed Byou’s clothes and shorts because his pants might be a little bit short for Uruha.
They walked out hand-in-hand just like young teenage lovers not caring about the society they lived in. This judgmental and cruel society, the two didn’t give a damn whoever saw them. Byou opened his car for Uruha and went out from the hotel with their shades on their face, though a passerby wearing a gray jersey and a hood holding a newspaper on his one hand and a cup of coffee on the other could recognize them. Aoi unexpectedly saw them as he just took his breakfast from a near coffee shop. The sudden throb on his chest was unexplainable as he affixed himself in a small alley punching the wall hard until his own fist bleeds, skin almost tearing up showing his bones. He hurt himself deeply. He wanted to be hurt physical, if it’s the only mean for him to become numb of the pain that Uruha gave him. He’s too afraid. Byou would take Uruha. He’s too afraid but in the end, he couldn’t do anything to fight for the one he loves. He already lost when Uruha met Byou once again.
♪Even if an endless sadness steals you away, say your heart won't get separated (from me).♪
“Byou said he’s coming at the rehearsal today. Have you seen Uruha-san, already?” Aoi opened his phone and Kazuki’s message come at the very top of his list. He slapped himself and went home. Aoi aided his wounds and dressed himself. He quickly rode his car and dashed to the place where he knew Uruha’s been staying right now.
At the rehearsal, Byou kept throwing glances and smiles to the person sitting on his front, watching him. Uruha had a talk with his long time friend Miyagi or now known as Yuuto. After years of being apart, their relationship didn’t change much. Both of them share the same extent of passion with music. The other members were all shocked of the sudden good relationship of the two which made Kazuki worried. Aoi wouldn’t accept this he knew. He’s afraid of what might happen but seeing Aoi outside the glass window, staring at Uruha, it’s just too late. Everything was blown open.
“Where are you now?” a message appeared on Uruha’s inbox.
“Aoi, I’m on an interview, didn’t I tell you?” Uruha replied.
“Turn back.” As he read the message, Uruha had already expected the worst case possible and it was seeing Aoi looking at him.
Uruha quickly ran outside leaving Byou with wondering thoughts. He quickly understood as he saw Uruha left with Aoi. He tried to follow them but Kazuki stopped him. Byou knew what Kazuki’s thinking, Uruha is Aoi’s lover right now. For them to be together, Uruha must fix everything by himself. Showing and butting himself with the two might not really help and may just worsen the situation but he couldn’t help to worry on what Aoi could do to Uruha. He’s just too afraid that the other might hurt his beloved but he knew that Kazuki won’t allow him to leave especially that he missed a lot of band practices.
Various thoughts ran inside Uruha’s mind as he walked side by side with Aoi. Both of their hands were on their pockets as if there were hiding their secret weapon when things went dangerous. Uruha tried to apologize but every time he tried to speak a word, Aoi would then talk about random stuffs like how fashionable the clothes on the store, the cute pets, and even the old lady crossing the street. Aoi then suddenly took his hand off his pocket and pulled Uruha inside an okonomiyaki restaurant. Aoi continued to talk about random stuff as he grilled their food while Uruha kept silent. His hands were holding the ends of his shirt. Uruha knew this couldn’t go on. He must bring out this topic to end it once and for all.
“Aoi listen, I…”
“Waaah! Okonomiyaki, okonomiyaki… here…” Aoi tried to feed him but Uruha wouldn’t open his mouth. Aoi was shut silent and slouched on his seat. “If it’s about breaking up, I don’t want to hear it.”
♪I cannot find the words to amend this distance (among us) that has gone too far. In the changing seasons, I was also aware of you not being able to catch up because it can be said that more than remember them, those days cannot be forgotten. Even if there is nothing more, I can take it.♪
“Byou and I are together now.”
“Fine, let’s eat. Let’s just talk about it later.”
Aoi brushed the discussion like that. Both of them eat silently but even after they left the restaurant Aoi’s still talking random stuff just trying to avoid the topic he didn’t want to hear. They continued walking until reaching a place where you could see a clear view of the city. It’s a public place but at the moment they were alone sitting at the bench, two cans of beer between them. They’re hands slightly touched when they grabbed their own cans. Aoi suddenly acted on an impulse and pulled Uruha closer to him giving him a kiss. Uruha, as expected, just pushed him away.
“I am always, ALWAYS at you side. I want to take care of you, to protect you, to LOVE you, damn it! Uruha, what else do I have to give to keep us together?” for the first time, it was Uruha who’s looking into the other’s tears. “I don’t understand it anymore.”
“I love Kojima. I always, ALWAYS love him. I’m sorry Aoi but let’s remain friends, okay?” Uruha looked at him, trying to convince the other with his pout and sorry eyes.
“I don’t care who you love, I just want you to stay with me, to let me love you!” Aoi once pulled him again and embraced him tighter. “If you don’t then I’ll disappear from you, from everyone’s sight. I’m going to quit the band…”
“Quitting…” Uruha mumbled on Aoi’s back. Aoi was surprised by his own words. That time, he sounded and acted like Yune. He slowly let go of Uruha to look on his face. He couldn’t explain that expression. It seemed like Uruha was back being the emotionless and soulless guy like what Yune left him to be.
♪Please don't shed your tears at that time where you can't go back and say for me your heart won't forget (about me).♪
“Aoi don’t… please…”
Just when I told him that I like to protect him and love him, I ended up devouring him like the broken doll he had been. Making him choose between two things that are important to him, knowing that losing one might end up like this, what could I attain by hurting him? It’s my selfishness that’s tearing him apart right now. I couldn’t possibly forgive myself if he returns to his old self. I’m the one who brought him back to life but it was Byou who brought back his emotions. I should be happy for him. What the hell I am doing?
“C’mon Uruha, it’s just a joke!” Aoi tapped Uruha’s shoulder. “I love my guitar! I’m just testing you! I couldn’t forgive you if you just give up on Byou like that! I don’t want any member of my band to become hopeless like what you did…”
“Aoi…” Uruha seemed to regain his light.
“All this time, I’m just supporting you. You… you couldn’t possibly think that it’s really serious… the romantic stuff,” Aoi laughed with teary eyes. “Be happy now… with Byou.” Aoi walked away wiping his tears.
“Aoi, see you at the recording…” Uruha stood up and Aoi waved a hand on him.
♪You cry at our tomorrow that both of us know is lost. In the end I won't be able to touch your honest face anymore.♪
At a far distanced, Aoi met Yuuto, “What are you doing here? No matter what the reason is, I couldn’t hurt Uruha. I rather kill a by-passer than to lay a hand on him,”
“Kill a by-passer?” Yuuto laughed. “Uruha told me a while ago that he might end up crying a lot that he couldn’t possibly go home when he broke up with you so I decided to pick him up but it seems like you…”
Aoi suddenly hugged him and buried his face to the other’s shoulder, “Just shut up and let me cry on you…”
“I’ve been thinking about quitting you know. There are various circumstances that I have in my mind but seeing those two, I’m thinking that they have a lot to go on through from now on. That’s why, a little bit more… I want to stay a little bit longer for them but at that moment when I’m walking a different path with them, I hope you’re still there to support them.”
“Are you kidding? As if I could really distance myself to him…” Aoi cockily cried. “Why does it hurt like this!” he shouted.
Uruha felt a warm hand on his shoulder. He turned back and saw Byou smiling at him. If Aoi really made him chose, he wondered what would be his answer. Can he leave Byou like that for the band or would he choose the band over Byou? Those thoughts slowly disappeared as Byou buried him unto his chest. It’s his safest place at the moment. He smiled as droplets of tears started to appear one by one. He then realized that it’s like choosing between his life and his heart. Losing one would make him suffer but he definitely tries to build those pieces together once again and in the end, he’ll choose…
♪Even if an endless sadness steals you away, don’t forget the days we though "goodbye" was a lie.♪
“Stop it Byou, it’s so ticklish…” Uruha tried to stop Byou as he keeps licking his member and spreading his legs widely.
“Then, what happened? You’re seriously keeping something from me!” Byou teased a little more turning Uruha back of him and played at his length and pinching his nipple.
“Nothing!” Uruha tried his best not to moan as he buried his face to the pillow.
“Oh no, you don’t,” Byou made his move turning him around once again and leaning for a kiss. “I’m not going to let this night pass smoothly if you won’t tell.”
“I keep telling you, I’m not hiding anything!”
Byou thrust inside him surprisingly, “This is a long night.” He smiled evilly.
No matter what you do, I won’t tell you that you’re the most important in my life right now.
♪The sky you looked up on your own and the dreams we had on our own, just like those days nothing of that has changed.
They are inside you now and forever....♪
A/N: Surprise? Yeah, I didn’t think too that it would end at the fourth chapter. So that’s it. Sorry for ending it abruptly. I have to finish Change of Heart next then I don’t know if I’ll write again. I just… couldn’t write anymore. I think I suck, thank you.
Chapters: 4/4
Author: mypaperdoll1611
Genre: Yaoi, Smut, Slice of Life
Warnings: usual Yaoi stuffs
Ratings: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: ByouxUruha (main), AoixUruha (one-sided)
Band: the GazettE, ScReW
Summary: I chose to dream more than to love, the pain that was destined to bear fruit. At the back of the grace of thy name, I discard every hope for our eternity. There shouldn’t be another wound to bleed, for every drop of my blood was already drained. Our path should separate from now on. I’m just a moth attracted to that dangerous fire. My wings had already taken off. No one could stop this blooming bud even those promises that once nurtured me.
Disclaimer: This story is purely fiction. Events and characters similar to tru people are purely coincidence especially with Byou and Uruha. *laughs*
Comments: 'SHIVER' lyrics translation credits to gazette_lyrics Yes, this is supposedly 5 chapters but it unexpectedly end on the fourth. I'm sorry.
Previous:
[1] [2] [3]
Latest:
[LAST SONG: Shiver]
♪Even if an endless sadness steals you away, say your heart won't get separated (from me).♪
A warm morning greeted him as he slowly removed his palm covering his small eyes. Uruha couldn’t help but to smile as he noticed the finely built arms wrapped around his body. The two of them were both naked and only covered with a sheet of blanket.
“Nnnn… Byou, more…” Uruha blushed as he remembered that passionate night between him and the other. Uruha couldn’t endure to deprive every part with a kiss. He closed his eyes and slowly leaned to touch the other’s lips. All of those painful memories, the longings, and the heartaches faded as if those were just nightmares as their contact slowly departed.
“I love you, Kojima,” Uruha slowly opened his eyes and were surprised to see the other awake and smiling.
“I love you too, Kouyou,” Byou pinned down Uruha, keeping his dominance on the bed. “And we will always be together from now on,” he smiled as he granted Uruha a deep and long kiss. His hands traveled to the other’s member as he savored Uruha’s neck by his mouth.
Uruha let Byou to colonize his body and wrapped his arm around him. Suddenly, a painful memory shook him. How can he be this unfair to Aoi, the person who always been his refuge, his protector and his savior. Before grasping this happiness, Uruha must prioritize what is right or he may end up hurting Aoi and ruining the band.
“I feel guilty for Aoi,” those words unintentionally escaped from his lips. “I don’t want him to be miserable because of me,” he bit his lips when he finally noticed that Byou paused and stared at him. “Ummm…”
♪ I wonder at your back that's running away what shape will tomorrow have. I didn't want to forget again the belief that nothing could make me shiver.♪
Byou moved and sat down at the edge of the bed. Uruha was alarmed as he tried to lessen their gap but was stopped as Byou looked back at him and smiled, “Of course, Aoi…” he looked down. “We have a practice today. Actually, I’ve been skipping practice these past few days,” they held each other’s hand. “Let’s come to the studio together. Well, I mean as a… couple.”
Uruha inhaled some air and cleared his mind before giving his short but favorable answer, “Yeah, I’m also free today. I think I would like to watch someone’s rehearsal.”
Byou had the cutest smile that time, “Thank you.” He pinched Uruha’s cheeks and ran to the bathroom, dancing of joy. To be welcomed and accepted in Uruha’s life once again, he never thought that life could be this compassionate.
“Alright! From now on, I have to do my best!” Uruha cheered himself. He knew for himself that he is changing bit by bit. He couldn’t stay lame as he had always been. He couldn’t be afraid and stay on Yune’s shadow forever. It’s all in the past. He must be strong and not let those unnecessary emotions to conquer him. Aoi is an important person. He is a very special person. Uruha could admit that. He’s been always there to protect and comfort him but Uruha couldn’t deny that it’s different from what he feels towards Byou. It’s more superior, more complicated and more fragile. Just a single hug, a single kiss and even just a mere glance of Byou is enough to wash all those painful memories, the doubts, and the hesitations. For now, what he really needs the most is Byou’s company.
Aoi might have some mental telepathy as if he knew that he’s the one running on Uruha’s mind right now. The LED of Uruha’s phone began to flicker as the default ringtone hymned a melody inside the room. Uruha picked up his call with the most energetic voice he could offer.
“Good morning Ao-”
“Where are you?” Aoi’s voice is a mixture of worry, displeased, hatred, or maybe simply anger. “I’ve been looking for you. Where are you, Uruha?”
“Aoi… I am in a… hotel,” Uruha must not trigger Aoi’s anger. He knew Aoi became a different person, a violent one when he’s angry. It’s his deepest fear.
“With whom?” Aoi’s tone is now interrogating and accusing as if Uruha has done something sinful and immoral.
“I am… all by myself,” he lied.
Uruha could hear Aoi sighed, maybe for a relief that he was alone and not together with Byou. He might be worrying all night that they’re been working out their relationship and finally together. Little that Aoi knows that all his fears have already came true.
“Oh, give me the address. I’m going to pick you up,” Aoi became a little bit cheerful. “Let’s have breakfast together, okay?”
“Aoi, I can’t. I have something important to do. Ah… I have an interview so…” Uruha clenched his fists. He couldn’t take his lies anymore. “How about lunch?”
“Hmmm… okay. See you later then. I love you.”
Byou couldn’t appear at the worst possible timing like that moment but he did, “Ah, I’m done. You could use the shower now.”
♪The habit of averting your eyes, your ambiguous answers and your unlaughable lies, if I cannot be next to them, then even meaning goes blur.♪
“Oi Uruha, who’s that-”
“Ah, I’m sorry Aoi. That’s the cleaner. I’m going to hang up now. My phone is dying. Later!” Uruha turned off his cell phone. He knew that Aoi would dial again for sure.
Uruha wasn’t numb of Byou’s pain during his conversation with Aoi but he couldn’t help it. He needed a right timing to be able to fix things. Byou still hasn’t said anything but just dried his hair using a blower. He’s wearing a robe that time, facing away from the other. Uruha put down his phone and ran to him, hugging Byou tightly as he could. Byou just laughed and teased Uruha to take a shower. His standing member was thrusting against his robe. Uruha blushed of embarrassment about forgetting that he’s still naked. He quickly took a bath and borrowed Byou’s clothes and shorts because his pants might be a little bit short for Uruha.
They walked out hand-in-hand just like young teenage lovers not caring about the society they lived in. This judgmental and cruel society, the two didn’t give a damn whoever saw them. Byou opened his car for Uruha and went out from the hotel with their shades on their face, though a passerby wearing a gray jersey and a hood holding a newspaper on his one hand and a cup of coffee on the other could recognize them. Aoi unexpectedly saw them as he just took his breakfast from a near coffee shop. The sudden throb on his chest was unexplainable as he affixed himself in a small alley punching the wall hard until his own fist bleeds, skin almost tearing up showing his bones. He hurt himself deeply. He wanted to be hurt physical, if it’s the only mean for him to become numb of the pain that Uruha gave him. He’s too afraid. Byou would take Uruha. He’s too afraid but in the end, he couldn’t do anything to fight for the one he loves. He already lost when Uruha met Byou once again.
♪Even if an endless sadness steals you away, say your heart won't get separated (from me).♪
“Byou said he’s coming at the rehearsal today. Have you seen Uruha-san, already?” Aoi opened his phone and Kazuki’s message come at the very top of his list. He slapped himself and went home. Aoi aided his wounds and dressed himself. He quickly rode his car and dashed to the place where he knew Uruha’s been staying right now.
At the rehearsal, Byou kept throwing glances and smiles to the person sitting on his front, watching him. Uruha had a talk with his long time friend Miyagi or now known as Yuuto. After years of being apart, their relationship didn’t change much. Both of them share the same extent of passion with music. The other members were all shocked of the sudden good relationship of the two which made Kazuki worried. Aoi wouldn’t accept this he knew. He’s afraid of what might happen but seeing Aoi outside the glass window, staring at Uruha, it’s just too late. Everything was blown open.
“Where are you now?” a message appeared on Uruha’s inbox.
“Aoi, I’m on an interview, didn’t I tell you?” Uruha replied.
“Turn back.” As he read the message, Uruha had already expected the worst case possible and it was seeing Aoi looking at him.
Uruha quickly ran outside leaving Byou with wondering thoughts. He quickly understood as he saw Uruha left with Aoi. He tried to follow them but Kazuki stopped him. Byou knew what Kazuki’s thinking, Uruha is Aoi’s lover right now. For them to be together, Uruha must fix everything by himself. Showing and butting himself with the two might not really help and may just worsen the situation but he couldn’t help to worry on what Aoi could do to Uruha. He’s just too afraid that the other might hurt his beloved but he knew that Kazuki won’t allow him to leave especially that he missed a lot of band practices.
Various thoughts ran inside Uruha’s mind as he walked side by side with Aoi. Both of their hands were on their pockets as if there were hiding their secret weapon when things went dangerous. Uruha tried to apologize but every time he tried to speak a word, Aoi would then talk about random stuffs like how fashionable the clothes on the store, the cute pets, and even the old lady crossing the street. Aoi then suddenly took his hand off his pocket and pulled Uruha inside an okonomiyaki restaurant. Aoi continued to talk about random stuff as he grilled their food while Uruha kept silent. His hands were holding the ends of his shirt. Uruha knew this couldn’t go on. He must bring out this topic to end it once and for all.
“Aoi listen, I…”
“Waaah! Okonomiyaki, okonomiyaki… here…” Aoi tried to feed him but Uruha wouldn’t open his mouth. Aoi was shut silent and slouched on his seat. “If it’s about breaking up, I don’t want to hear it.”
♪I cannot find the words to amend this distance (among us) that has gone too far. In the changing seasons, I was also aware of you not being able to catch up because it can be said that more than remember them, those days cannot be forgotten. Even if there is nothing more, I can take it.♪
“Byou and I are together now.”
“Fine, let’s eat. Let’s just talk about it later.”
Aoi brushed the discussion like that. Both of them eat silently but even after they left the restaurant Aoi’s still talking random stuff just trying to avoid the topic he didn’t want to hear. They continued walking until reaching a place where you could see a clear view of the city. It’s a public place but at the moment they were alone sitting at the bench, two cans of beer between them. They’re hands slightly touched when they grabbed their own cans. Aoi suddenly acted on an impulse and pulled Uruha closer to him giving him a kiss. Uruha, as expected, just pushed him away.
“I am always, ALWAYS at you side. I want to take care of you, to protect you, to LOVE you, damn it! Uruha, what else do I have to give to keep us together?” for the first time, it was Uruha who’s looking into the other’s tears. “I don’t understand it anymore.”
“I love Kojima. I always, ALWAYS love him. I’m sorry Aoi but let’s remain friends, okay?” Uruha looked at him, trying to convince the other with his pout and sorry eyes.
“I don’t care who you love, I just want you to stay with me, to let me love you!” Aoi once pulled him again and embraced him tighter. “If you don’t then I’ll disappear from you, from everyone’s sight. I’m going to quit the band…”
“Quitting…” Uruha mumbled on Aoi’s back. Aoi was surprised by his own words. That time, he sounded and acted like Yune. He slowly let go of Uruha to look on his face. He couldn’t explain that expression. It seemed like Uruha was back being the emotionless and soulless guy like what Yune left him to be.
♪Please don't shed your tears at that time where you can't go back and say for me your heart won't forget (about me).♪
“Aoi don’t… please…”
Just when I told him that I like to protect him and love him, I ended up devouring him like the broken doll he had been. Making him choose between two things that are important to him, knowing that losing one might end up like this, what could I attain by hurting him? It’s my selfishness that’s tearing him apart right now. I couldn’t possibly forgive myself if he returns to his old self. I’m the one who brought him back to life but it was Byou who brought back his emotions. I should be happy for him. What the hell I am doing?
“C’mon Uruha, it’s just a joke!” Aoi tapped Uruha’s shoulder. “I love my guitar! I’m just testing you! I couldn’t forgive you if you just give up on Byou like that! I don’t want any member of my band to become hopeless like what you did…”
“Aoi…” Uruha seemed to regain his light.
“All this time, I’m just supporting you. You… you couldn’t possibly think that it’s really serious… the romantic stuff,” Aoi laughed with teary eyes. “Be happy now… with Byou.” Aoi walked away wiping his tears.
“Aoi, see you at the recording…” Uruha stood up and Aoi waved a hand on him.
♪You cry at our tomorrow that both of us know is lost. In the end I won't be able to touch your honest face anymore.♪
At a far distanced, Aoi met Yuuto, “What are you doing here? No matter what the reason is, I couldn’t hurt Uruha. I rather kill a by-passer than to lay a hand on him,”
“Kill a by-passer?” Yuuto laughed. “Uruha told me a while ago that he might end up crying a lot that he couldn’t possibly go home when he broke up with you so I decided to pick him up but it seems like you…”
Aoi suddenly hugged him and buried his face to the other’s shoulder, “Just shut up and let me cry on you…”
“I’ve been thinking about quitting you know. There are various circumstances that I have in my mind but seeing those two, I’m thinking that they have a lot to go on through from now on. That’s why, a little bit more… I want to stay a little bit longer for them but at that moment when I’m walking a different path with them, I hope you’re still there to support them.”
“Are you kidding? As if I could really distance myself to him…” Aoi cockily cried. “Why does it hurt like this!” he shouted.
Uruha felt a warm hand on his shoulder. He turned back and saw Byou smiling at him. If Aoi really made him chose, he wondered what would be his answer. Can he leave Byou like that for the band or would he choose the band over Byou? Those thoughts slowly disappeared as Byou buried him unto his chest. It’s his safest place at the moment. He smiled as droplets of tears started to appear one by one. He then realized that it’s like choosing between his life and his heart. Losing one would make him suffer but he definitely tries to build those pieces together once again and in the end, he’ll choose…
♪Even if an endless sadness steals you away, don’t forget the days we though "goodbye" was a lie.♪
“Stop it Byou, it’s so ticklish…” Uruha tried to stop Byou as he keeps licking his member and spreading his legs widely.
“Then, what happened? You’re seriously keeping something from me!” Byou teased a little more turning Uruha back of him and played at his length and pinching his nipple.
“Nothing!” Uruha tried his best not to moan as he buried his face to the pillow.
“Oh no, you don’t,” Byou made his move turning him around once again and leaning for a kiss. “I’m not going to let this night pass smoothly if you won’t tell.”
“I keep telling you, I’m not hiding anything!”
Byou thrust inside him surprisingly, “This is a long night.” He smiled evilly.
No matter what you do, I won’t tell you that you’re the most important in my life right now.
♪The sky you looked up on your own and the dreams we had on our own, just like those days nothing of that has changed.
They are inside you now and forever....♪
A/N: Surprise? Yeah, I didn’t think too that it would end at the fourth chapter. So that’s it. Sorry for ending it abruptly. I have to finish Change of Heart next then I don’t know if I’ll write again. I just… couldn’t write anymore. I think I suck, thank you.