goodbye future.

goodbye med-school.

caitlin, you suck at school. and that's your only job. that's a problem. FIX IT!!!

fuckkkkk!

i remember the first time that i met him...

it was summer time and i was 9. walking down the street with my friend bet, we watched as the house on the corner was filled with furniture and boxes, and watched as the two new kids on the block explored their new house and yard. i didn't see much of the kids aside from the few times they rode their ( Read more... )

t's a beautiful day out. it feels like spring, but it's upsetting that it's all just going to change in the morning... back to cold and snow. oh michigan weather. i took a nice little walk on the diag today and i got to thinking. i'm done being upset with myself for things and people that i can't control. if things end up working for me someday, ( Read more... )

it's |raining| like you wanted..."

what am i doing with my life and where is it all going?

right now it feels like it's all going to hell.

so this is the new year... and i don't feel any different.

it seems to me that i will never cease to be disappointed by disappointments.

my heart hurts. i want to be in colorado with cassie right now. i can't even imagine. i think i'll be going out for funeral services in a couple days. :'(

raindrops dance in the puddles and on my face ( Read more... )

it occurred to me tonight that i was never really homesick last year, and i'm not really homesick now, but i miss my family a rediculous amount. i talked to my mom on the phone tonight and i just really miss her. and i miss my dad and the left-over cold pizza we would eat before michigan football games at home, and the double-decker grilled cheese ( Read more... )

5 years ago: I was in 9th grade. I learned what it meant to be strong. My mom and I didn't get along. AT ALL.

1 year ago: Arrived at Michigan. Discovered that I'm not as smart as I thought I was. I did something for myself.

Tomorrow: Sleeping, watching the Lions, studying for my stats midterm

5 snacks I enjoy: sunchips, carrots, chips & ( Read more... )

tonight i decided that in my dreams i'm going back to that rainy friday afternoon. we were sitting on the floor. you were playing guitar and i sat behind you with my arms around your waist and my head in the little dip in between your shoulder blades. all i could hear was the rain, you strumming the guitar and you softly humming along. i wish every ( Read more... )