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I used to be the queen. I used the be the one who rocked your world. But now I'm just another girl....
So I saw Joel's dad and sister driving by me. They were waiting to turn left onto continental and I was at the light going the opposite way by White Hen. He heard my loud blasting country music and turned and look and waved with this big smile on his face... hate to say it... he looked just like Joel. Or rather Joel looks just like him. Same facial features, expressions, smile. It was so funny! And not to sound like I'm like in love with Joel's dad or anything, but it was cute.... reminded me of Joel... that's why...
I am having an amazing day but a bad him day. 4 days that I haven't seen or talked to him. Haven't even answered when he's called. Funny isn't it? I know what has to be done. I know how I need to be and what needs to happen. Maybe I'll call him back in a few days... maybe not... I mean I don't want to let him forget about me, I just want him to see that I'm not available for him all the time anymore. It's good for both of us... most definitely... but it still hurts like hell...
"He used to promise soon things would change. It's been years and it's still the same. And that hurts. He oughta know that by now...."
Problem is, nothing's changing, and he will never know it... even when I'm screaming it in his face....
So I saw Joel's dad and sister driving by me. They were waiting to turn left onto continental and I was at the light going the opposite way by White Hen. He heard my loud blasting country music and turned and look and waved with this big smile on his face... hate to say it... he looked just like Joel. Or rather Joel looks just like him. Same facial features, expressions, smile. It was so funny! And not to sound like I'm like in love with Joel's dad or anything, but it was cute.... reminded me of Joel... that's why...
I am having an amazing day but a bad him day. 4 days that I haven't seen or talked to him. Haven't even answered when he's called. Funny isn't it? I know what has to be done. I know how I need to be and what needs to happen. Maybe I'll call him back in a few days... maybe not... I mean I don't want to let him forget about me, I just want him to see that I'm not available for him all the time anymore. It's good for both of us... most definitely... but it still hurts like hell...
"He used to promise soon things would change. It's been years and it's still the same. And that hurts. He oughta know that by now...."
Problem is, nothing's changing, and he will never know it... even when I'm screaming it in his face....