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I believe, therefore im healed.
Lately ive been so down about the situation with my ex boyfriend; well ive been attending church and REALLY paying attention to the messages and its just so nuts that i can simply relate to what my pastors have to say. i feel like ive been going through heart ache for the past 5 months, spending mostly every day thinking about memories. But this past wednesday night, something just came over me... yeah i still miss him, but i HAVE to believe my heart break is healed, and the void is filled with God's love. As of now, i barely believe that he ever shared the same love i felt for him during the 2 yrs we spent together. i look back on it now, and i say i made a mistake breaking up with him... but now, i see it as closure on that door in my life, and many more doors will soon open up for me. My relationship with God has gotten stronger since ive attended Brownsville, my pastors there really care about what im going through. i actually told my pastor everything i went through these past few months, and i was so amazed i did that because i think id be somewhat ashamed of the mistakes ive made within the relationship before being saved. But my bad judgement, he told me im not suffering the consequences for that now, he doesnt believe in that he says... and that was totally different from what my OTHER youth pastor said at my other church i attend; its pretty nuts, the difference in opinion. The only thing i can really trust and rely on is my relationship with God, i know hes forgiven me, and hes accepted me. I love spending my quiet time with the Lord, ive been seeing a dramatic affect to my life since ive been praying and reading constantly everyday. About the ex boyfriend deal, im somewhat glad it happened; ive met really awesome people, i started attending this way cool church with really great influencing people... i just feel like ive broken away from this bondage that has been keeping me in depression. i know God has a way for me, and he has the perfect guy for me somewhere out there. If things are meant to happen, they will happen within God's timing... no more of this TRYING to get what i want, if i have the desire for it in my heart, and i seek God in all i do and continue to praise and give him glory, he will give me the desires of my heart; because well our God is totally awesome. when i pray i get these chills like hes right there with me, its an awesome feeling... God is everywhere, all the time! and i love it... im finally content with the way things are going now.
I just got back from Six Flags with brownsville, and i had an amazing time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOSH, i love my friends the Lord has given me :)
Lately ive been so down about the situation with my ex boyfriend; well ive been attending church and REALLY paying attention to the messages and its just so nuts that i can simply relate to what my pastors have to say. i feel like ive been going through heart ache for the past 5 months, spending mostly every day thinking about memories. But this past wednesday night, something just came over me... yeah i still miss him, but i HAVE to believe my heart break is healed, and the void is filled with God's love. As of now, i barely believe that he ever shared the same love i felt for him during the 2 yrs we spent together. i look back on it now, and i say i made a mistake breaking up with him... but now, i see it as closure on that door in my life, and many more doors will soon open up for me. My relationship with God has gotten stronger since ive attended Brownsville, my pastors there really care about what im going through. i actually told my pastor everything i went through these past few months, and i was so amazed i did that because i think id be somewhat ashamed of the mistakes ive made within the relationship before being saved. But my bad judgement, he told me im not suffering the consequences for that now, he doesnt believe in that he says... and that was totally different from what my OTHER youth pastor said at my other church i attend; its pretty nuts, the difference in opinion. The only thing i can really trust and rely on is my relationship with God, i know hes forgiven me, and hes accepted me. I love spending my quiet time with the Lord, ive been seeing a dramatic affect to my life since ive been praying and reading constantly everyday. About the ex boyfriend deal, im somewhat glad it happened; ive met really awesome people, i started attending this way cool church with really great influencing people... i just feel like ive broken away from this bondage that has been keeping me in depression. i know God has a way for me, and he has the perfect guy for me somewhere out there. If things are meant to happen, they will happen within God's timing... no more of this TRYING to get what i want, if i have the desire for it in my heart, and i seek God in all i do and continue to praise and give him glory, he will give me the desires of my heart; because well our God is totally awesome. when i pray i get these chills like hes right there with me, its an awesome feeling... God is everywhere, all the time! and i love it... im finally content with the way things are going now.
I just got back from Six Flags with brownsville, and i had an amazing time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOSH, i love my friends the Lord has given me :)