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when i feel sad, i know it will only be a little while before i feel so "pumped" up and giddy again... just the thought of having God in my life just overwhelms me with happiness. God knows everything im going through, he knows how much i miss my ex boyfriend, and how i can be so lonely/sad at times. He puts it in my heart to read and pray and just get closer to him, he comforts me, he knows HE is good for me. i honestly, think at this point, God is putting me through this trial to build my character, its going to help me in the end, its going to make me strong and independent. Lately, ive been having this really weird feeling, when i wake up in the morning the very thought of my ex pops up in my mind, and it hasnt for a while, and all out of the blue its been doing this constantly through my mind. i pray everytime the thought of him arouses in my head, i pray that if its meant to be that its not just a one sided deal, that he too is thinking of me.
i know i am weak, and i have to learn to be stronger, i havent called him for a while, but tonight i called him 2 times, i dont know what came over me, i left him a message, me crying of course because i was looking through old memory boxes and pictures... but my phone died, perhaps it was suppose to be like that. About three hours later, i called again, left a message hoping hes having fun. i think with God's love, it helped me to be super calm and stop crying and actually have some sense while i was talking. After that, i continued to read my bible, and wow i just feel so refreshed now, and idk i can honestly just say that i trust in God's plan, and i know that he has it all planned out for me, and this feeling i have now is just temporary and God will provide me with someone that will take all the pain and misery away. Yay for God!
Im not going to call him anymore, i dont need to, its unecessary, and if its meant to be... God will do something awesome to let us know it :)
i know i am weak, and i have to learn to be stronger, i havent called him for a while, but tonight i called him 2 times, i dont know what came over me, i left him a message, me crying of course because i was looking through old memory boxes and pictures... but my phone died, perhaps it was suppose to be like that. About three hours later, i called again, left a message hoping hes having fun. i think with God's love, it helped me to be super calm and stop crying and actually have some sense while i was talking. After that, i continued to read my bible, and wow i just feel so refreshed now, and idk i can honestly just say that i trust in God's plan, and i know that he has it all planned out for me, and this feeling i have now is just temporary and God will provide me with someone that will take all the pain and misery away. Yay for God!
Im not going to call him anymore, i dont need to, its unecessary, and if its meant to be... God will do something awesome to let us know it :)