update
Well its sure been a long time since i updated so heres the scoop well ive been seeing this guy shawn hes so nice its kinda confusing me and darren have decided to have a compleatly open relationship meaning we can both see other people and still be with each other i think its called Polyamorus which is kewl to me as i realy like shawn and right now dont want to loose darren anyway things have been going realy well in that aspect weve been spending alot of time together and ive been learning to play magic which i kinda thought would suck but i realy like it now shawn even gave me one of his zombie decks which is incredibly sweet of him oh my goodness hes just so perfect i dont know how to say it on the outside he can be a total jerk around others but then he looks at me with his eyes like dont worrie im still sweet on the inside and i get butterflys in my tummy , its a little hard to get used to not telling darren as i used to tell him everything but lucky for me me and gabe have gotten realy close and i can talk to her about it i dont know what to say wow im speachless i realy like shawn and its not about sex ya we flirt and i tease but realy when i think about him i think of just hanging out being close he told me a while ago that he was a cuddle whore and im realy looking forward to that i like cuddling and he said sex doesnt make or bread a relationship intamacy does and i dont think i realy got it till yesterday recently ive been hitting on him more than usual and we were texting abour feelings and how he doesnt show them well thats why he writes poetry then i had said i need to know something if he likes me or how he likes me and yesterday when we were out it was amazing i sat beside him and when im cold i curl up to him well i didnt yesterday and he looked at me and said if i was cold i could rub his leg which ive done before when im gold or get closer of course i smiled waited a few moments then moved closer also when i was close leaning my head against his he leaned his head against mine in that.. i like u too hugging lean it was awsome i realy like this i dont feel that he just wants sex like darren does he realy wants whats inside now im not saying he might have thought about it but hes sure not going to take advantage of me just oh my gosh i realy like him well ok well anyway i have to go meet gabe ill write soon!