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this week was one of my bumpiest since i've probably been born. i'll never want to relive this week. i just felt like running away from the world. away from everyone actually. it hurts to have your dreams shattered simply because you actually had to believe in it. THAT will make you feel lost. THAT, my friend, was not getting lost. THIS IS. i feel my retaining self coming back. the one that wants to do everything, anything that can get me away from reality. occupying my time elsewhere so i won't have to face the truth. i even kept the fass letters in my cupboard, refusing to go through it. now, i feel like taking a holiday too. to shop, spend money, relax and enjoy. but if i do go, i know there'll be hell waiting for me to wake up to when i come back. i'm confused and frustrated.
i hope the finland trip doesn't get called off then. if it does, it's prob just the 3 of us, plus zhizhong if he decides to be our man-escort. i can't think straight now. so i'm gonna sit in my cubicle here and think of the esprit sale at hg mall and what im going to eat for lunch. time's passing way to slowly today.
i hope the finland trip doesn't get called off then. if it does, it's prob just the 3 of us, plus zhizhong if he decides to be our man-escort. i can't think straight now. so i'm gonna sit in my cubicle here and think of the esprit sale at hg mall and what im going to eat for lunch. time's passing way to slowly today.