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it's funny how things go full circle. catching up with fabian has been awesome. really miss him loads. those times were we used to talk so much just suddenly disappeared for the last year or so. now, it's like i found my friend again. (: it's interesting how we all have grown. i like my freedom alot more now. i do lotsa stuff, i make myself happy. fab's grown lots too. going into his 21st year made all the difference apparently! hahahaha(: i really am enjoying this life now. especially shopping fabbb!
work has been good(: i enjoy work soooo much mainly cos of the people there. they're all awesomely nice people! and yeah, i kinda feel a sense of belonging there! (: it's like im part of them. even though im just temp. (: i'll miss them like crazy. all the intercom sessions, standing outside the building deciding lunch places, afternoon teabreaks and the mad rush to go home. i actually look forward to work! (for the wrong reasons im sorry!) :D
it's kinda decided now. that im gonna go to fass. appeals end tmr 12am. or was it 11pm. i can't rmb. but yeah, im not appealing anymore. i don't know why i should appeal. i can't find a reason as to why architecture means so much to me. besides being something i grew up with. other than that, i really don't see why reading architecture will mean so much to me. talked to lesley and she said 'cher, tell them why reading archi means so much to you. tell them why they need you. and why you need them too i guess?' yea lesley, i haven't found the answer to that. and i can only conclude here that i don't need it that badly. i AM disappointed. i cried buckets. i was totally demoralised. but i just can't get that sense of drive back. or maybe, i just don't want to face my failures twice. it's painful enough. either way, fass will be my new home come august. so yeah, i'll see the world there(: if MY world gets in. i hardly found anyone who's going there ):
so yeah, im actually quite happy with my life now. friends, family, school, work. i know im missing one. but i won't give the rest up for the world. so let's just take one step as they come yea? :D im happy enough for now.
work has been good(: i enjoy work soooo much mainly cos of the people there. they're all awesomely nice people! and yeah, i kinda feel a sense of belonging there! (: it's like im part of them. even though im just temp. (: i'll miss them like crazy. all the intercom sessions, standing outside the building deciding lunch places, afternoon teabreaks and the mad rush to go home. i actually look forward to work! (for the wrong reasons im sorry!) :D
it's kinda decided now. that im gonna go to fass. appeals end tmr 12am. or was it 11pm. i can't rmb. but yeah, im not appealing anymore. i don't know why i should appeal. i can't find a reason as to why architecture means so much to me. besides being something i grew up with. other than that, i really don't see why reading architecture will mean so much to me. talked to lesley and she said 'cher, tell them why reading archi means so much to you. tell them why they need you. and why you need them too i guess?' yea lesley, i haven't found the answer to that. and i can only conclude here that i don't need it that badly. i AM disappointed. i cried buckets. i was totally demoralised. but i just can't get that sense of drive back. or maybe, i just don't want to face my failures twice. it's painful enough. either way, fass will be my new home come august. so yeah, i'll see the world there(: if MY world gets in. i hardly found anyone who's going there ):
so yeah, im actually quite happy with my life now. friends, family, school, work. i know im missing one. but i won't give the rest up for the world. so let's just take one step as they come yea? :D im happy enough for now.