letter to OR
ive written him a lot of letters apologizing and now im not too sure i want to anymore so heres the new one.. maybe when my pride stops being so f*in annoying i will actually send it one day
Dear B,
I don't regret a lot of things in my life, and I regret even fewer in regards to our relationship. However, there are 2 things that I do regret and I want to apologize to you for. One is that I am sorry for giving you a reason to lose your faith in me, and the other is that I am very sorry for ruining your 21st birthday. I know that there were a lot of things that I did that hurt you, and I am sorry for that, but the main thing is, we had a good relationship and I am sorry for that last thing I did to cause us to break apart. To be honest, I don't think that we would have ended up together, or lasted in a romantic relationship, but we were good friends and I do miss that. As far as your birthday goes--there is no excuse for my behavior, and I am really sorry for ruining it. You told me not to worry about it at the time, but I know you were mad, and you had reason to be. Anyway, that's really all I have to say, and I know it won't change anything anymore, or probably ever, but I just wanted to tell you that so that maybe one day, though I don't expect it, nor am I asking--but I hope you will be able to forgive me and maybe make peace with yourself. I wish you well, and hope that life is treating you fairly. I do miss you, though I don't like to admit that, but I have made peace with myself, and my actions, though I do know I screwed up here and there--I think we are supposed to sometimes, otherwise we will never learn. Good luck, and not that I think you ever will, but if you want to contact me, you're smart and I'm sure you'd figure out how. Thank you for caring about my like you did--and just know, I cared about you too.
Take care,
C
P.S. To this day, I still remember the time I visited you, and it still remains one of my favorite places in the world. Lots of love and luck.
Dear B,
I don't regret a lot of things in my life, and I regret even fewer in regards to our relationship. However, there are 2 things that I do regret and I want to apologize to you for. One is that I am sorry for giving you a reason to lose your faith in me, and the other is that I am very sorry for ruining your 21st birthday. I know that there were a lot of things that I did that hurt you, and I am sorry for that, but the main thing is, we had a good relationship and I am sorry for that last thing I did to cause us to break apart. To be honest, I don't think that we would have ended up together, or lasted in a romantic relationship, but we were good friends and I do miss that. As far as your birthday goes--there is no excuse for my behavior, and I am really sorry for ruining it. You told me not to worry about it at the time, but I know you were mad, and you had reason to be. Anyway, that's really all I have to say, and I know it won't change anything anymore, or probably ever, but I just wanted to tell you that so that maybe one day, though I don't expect it, nor am I asking--but I hope you will be able to forgive me and maybe make peace with yourself. I wish you well, and hope that life is treating you fairly. I do miss you, though I don't like to admit that, but I have made peace with myself, and my actions, though I do know I screwed up here and there--I think we are supposed to sometimes, otherwise we will never learn. Good luck, and not that I think you ever will, but if you want to contact me, you're smart and I'm sure you'd figure out how. Thank you for caring about my like you did--and just know, I cared about you too.
Take care,
C
P.S. To this day, I still remember the time I visited you, and it still remains one of my favorite places in the world. Lots of love and luck.