so once again

[mybonesareyours]

i prove myself a failure.. i dont even want to go into the details of my weekend, but basically i cannot do anything right and i just end up f*in up so badly.. anyway im back up, i dont even want to talk about how much right now.. but i feel miserable.. and i want to rip my body apart.. im fasting again this week.. it will be really hard but im doing it.. i want to be skinny.. so skinny that i could die.. cuz id rather die than feel this f*in miserable.. anyway, i hope all of you are doing alright.. stay strong.. today is a new day, this week is a new week, and i will not fail anymore.. i will be strong, and i will be thin..

plan for today:
b- SF redbull, coffee w splenda, dex
l- coffee w splenda, dex
d- fake eating moms dinner

plan for tomorrow:
b- SF redbull, coffee w splenda, dex
l- coffee w splenda, dex
d- faking again, maybe another coffee/diet coke

paln for thursday:
b- SF redbull, coffee w splenda, dex
l- nothing
d- fake it for nothing

i am going to try and lose 6 pounds by friday.. i will do it.. no matter what.. wish me luck

gw1- 100 (by friday)
gw2- 97 (by 6/30)
gw3- 93 (by 7/3)
gw4- 90 (by 7/9)
gw5- 87 (by 7/15)
gw6- 85 (by 7/23)
UGW- 82 (by 7/31)