i really f*in hate this
i really f*in hate that i miss him so much.. and i dont know why.. what the hell is wrong with me.. i dont get it.. i have the perfect.. well maybe not perfect but perfect for me.. boyfriend.. who i want to spend the rest of my life together.. so why in hell do i miss him.. what is going on with me and my head.. its not like we even had that great of a damn relationship.. it was so f*ed up all of the time.. and he was jealous, and i was mean.. and it was just havoc all over the goddam place.. its just.. when i get in these moods, and i feel like this.. i want to be with him.. because he made me feel okay.. and ugh.. stop it.. has anyone ever missed someone that they shouldnt.. not because its not only over, but because its stupid, doesnt make any sense, and you hated him..