well heLLO.
I think I’m getting back to normal again. The past month and a half has just been me mired in some combination of quicksand and fecal matter, too preoccupied to talk to many people, see many people, and do much of anything. It feels like I’ve got my motivation back. I’m kind of excited to do my classwork sometimes now. That may not sound like much, but recall- this is homework we’re talking about. It’s nice to FINALLY see how much of what I’m learning pertains to what I’ll actually be doing for the rest of my life. It kind of sucks, because this means that I actually have to learn organic chemistry syntheses and reagents and solvents, but at least it’s not pointless. And two quarters of intro biology while working concurrently in the lab compliment each other nicely. I just read a section in my bio textbook for class on a protein I’m working with in the lab, STAT1. Trust me, it’s its own very small reward.
I’ve also arranged my life like a triage unit in M*A*S*H. Some things I’ve given up on:
Reclaiming the damage deposit on my house
Keeping up with pop culture/TV/movies
Having a “regular schedule”
Some things I’m trying to save or preserve:
My mind (trying to read books and listen to music and learn things not related to classes)
My body (meditation, studying while exercising, biking to campus/work whenever possible, finding easy ways to eat fruits and vegetables, trying to eat organic foods- I noticed living with my mom and eating organic foods growing up, I was very rarely sick)
My bank account (reminding myself that everything I buy is something I’ll have to take with me when I move to a new place, and eventually move across the country)
My art/creativity (attempting to view a lot of science as art, which works better than one might think)
My friendships (yeah, maybe I’ll call you sometime. Or visit. Or email. Or something…)
My future
I hear back about a fellowship grant I applied for in a week. Stay tuned, I might be around.
I’ve also arranged my life like a triage unit in M*A*S*H. Some things I’ve given up on:
Reclaiming the damage deposit on my house
Keeping up with pop culture/TV/movies
Having a “regular schedule”
Some things I’m trying to save or preserve:
My mind (trying to read books and listen to music and learn things not related to classes)
My body (meditation, studying while exercising, biking to campus/work whenever possible, finding easy ways to eat fruits and vegetables, trying to eat organic foods- I noticed living with my mom and eating organic foods growing up, I was very rarely sick)
My bank account (reminding myself that everything I buy is something I’ll have to take with me when I move to a new place, and eventually move across the country)
My art/creativity (attempting to view a lot of science as art, which works better than one might think)
My friendships (yeah, maybe I’ll call you sometime. Or visit. Or email. Or something…)
My future
I hear back about a fellowship grant I applied for in a week. Stay tuned, I might be around.