Well, lots of stuff happened. I think things are getting better with the whole my life is hell thing. I feel like I am about over what Presley did to me, I guess he's been treating me like a acquaintance for weeks so I had some time to get used to it I guess. I just can't understand why I am just not attractive to him anymore its like he just ( Read more... )

Presley and I finally broke up.  I guess I should have seen it coming this way and I guess I kind of knew but it still just feels fucking awful and I can't stop having flashbacks to when I was happy and had something in my life.  I helped him move in yesterday, none of his friends from work showed so it was just me, his parents, aunt, and brother- ( Read more... )

So no talk last night, all that build up for nothing. His aunt being there pretty much ruins everything because he's required to spend time with her whiles she's here FOR THE NEXT MONTH. I was there when he got home, I beat him by a few moments, and he basically just wasn't interrested in talking, he went downstairs and joined his little family ( Read more... )

Last night was hellish. I know I've been writing a lot about Presley lately, so if you just want to skip over this I understand, this is really just to get it out of my head and somewhere else where it doesn't hurt as much. God, that sounds psycho but oh well, I've always kept a journal in one form or another and it just helps. So yesterday I ( Read more... )

Indeciciveness is really hard. It hurts more than having the answer because you have to consider all the possibilities and their consequences. I just want to ask him to just tell me how he feels already instead of sending me all these mixed signals and basically making me sweat it out. I know he has a billion things going on and that I am not ( Read more... )

This week has been really weird in that I have spent just about the entire week at home, this morning was the first time I've driven my car in a week and I just ran to the gas station to pick my parents up some cigarettes.  My mother and I have never really gotten along and since she is a useless piece of shit she is always home, therefore I do my ( Read more... )

I know I never use this thing anymore but Ashley informed me that I am required to start writing again mostly to bitch about Presley.  Since he got this stupid house it just seems like he doesn't give half a shit about anything else and while I know he is really stressed out about it (mortgage, furniture, appliances) I just don't find it acceptable ( Read more... )