Life in OR
Alright, so I've been here, what? 5 days now? Its pretty alright. Its much more country but not really, there's stuff everywhere but it's mostly little family owned stores, which is a nice change. You can get some cool shit down here. They even have a beading store for me so I can make my jewelery! ^.^ So, anyway I left last Thursday, my flight was at 9:30 but the 2 days before that I was entertaining before I left. I had JB, Ashley, and Josh over Tuesday night where we pretty much played video games, drank, and played cards. I got FUCKED UP! Ugh, that was another one of those 'I am never drinking again' nights, but that didn't last long. Ashley left kind of early after she got through working on Abby's cosplay for this last weekend's AWA, so the rest of us went to waffle house to eat because JB was starving. I just got coffee (like I needed it) and then we went back and killed that bottle of Jack I had left over from whatever. I figured I might as well use it or shorty would have gotten a hold of it. Alex was hangin out with us all night too, he's such a good kid he needs to straighten his ass out or he's going to fuck up his life. I keep trying to tell him but he won't listen to me, what do I know? I just went through the same shit a few years ago, arg! So anyway, JB passed out on the couch and Josh had to leave at 5 for work so I walked him out, as dad was getting ready to leave as well, turns out though he just went home, got changed, and came back. He skipped work for me again, I felt awful. He got back to my house around 9:30, apparently he called me and asked if it was okay but I don't remember talking to him so I guess I'll just believe him on that. I had to get up to let him in and after that, and only about 4 hours of sleep I was ready to get up and go so I let him have my bed and took a shower that lasted for about an hour, I hate when I smell like booze ugh, and amused myself for awhile before JB woke up. JB had to run go do his thing sometime in the afternoon and I woke Josh around 3 because I was bored and dad would be getting home soon so we hung out for the rest of Wed. too. Damnit, it figures I would find someone who doesn't think I am a total fucking nut case right before I left. We listened to music for awhile while I finished packing. The Evanescence song 'Bring Me to Life' came on my pandora while we were just laying there and we kind of sung it as a duet while kissing, I know it sounds kind of weird but it was really sweet and different, I really liked it. Stupid romantic shit is usually not my thing, maybe Twilight is turning me... So when I hear that song I think of him. We eventually left the house and went to Dupree park to talk and watch the stars and then to grab food at my favorite place which is nice just before I leave and then we struggled to say awake (especially me) because at that point there was not reason to go to sleep just to wake up in a hour to go to the airport. There are not a lot of people I can spend this much time with, but he's good company. I got him to play guitar hero, he got better with some practice even at 6 in the morning haha. We talked about fucking everything, I even told him about my faeries and dragons and he didn't laugh at me, I think that's a first. Everyone thinks I am just joking or something when I talk about that kind of stuff, but I think everyone sees things out of the corner of their eye sometimes and they question their narrow ideals for just a second. So, yea, since I've been here I've talked to Josh at least once a day, he's kind of keeping me grounded. I miss him like crazy ugh. God, all this writing and I'm not even up to the plane yet!!
Yea, I know it's lame but I was thinking of you.... Look, I still have to skull earing in haha!
Okay so Thursday morning Dad drove me to the airport and made sure I got to security but when I turned hug him before I got in line I saw his eyes were all teary and I was like NOOO!!! DAMMIT YOU CAN'T CRY THAT'S NOT FAIR! God, I felt like shit. But I thought I should go, try it, so I did and I think it was the right decision in spite of everything I left. If I hadn't come I would have always wondered what could have happened out here. So I caught my plane about just in time because security took for freaking ever and I was on that plane to Seattle for almost 6 hours. I figured since I didn't sleep the night before I would sleep on the plane. WRONG. I was in the aisle seat and there was a spanish couple next to me that chattered in spanish the whole time and had to pee EVERY 20 MINUTES so I was not really given a chance, and the seats are uncomfortable anyway so I mostly read and watched movies on my zune. Once I got to Seattle I had a 2 hour layover but I had to go all the way to the other side of the airport for the Air Alaska gates so I walked all the way over there and grabbed a sandwich just in time to board this tiny ass propellor plane. I was scared shitless, the plane to Seattle had been a regular giant ass plane this one looked like I could push it over. I took a picture of it, ha, I'll put it up later. But it wasn't so bad I sat next to this nice buisness man who takes that plane almost everyday to commute between Seattle and Eugene, I thought that was insane but I didn't say that. I guess its the same as a bus and if his company pays for it, really it's only an hour commute. I survived that plane ride and MIRACULOUSLY my bags made it too so I got my luggage and met my uncle Jeff and Mom in the lower airport and they took me back to my mom's house. It's cute, just a two bed room little house.
I mean really, is this thing going to take off or just roll?
We don't really have any furniture and for now I am sleeping on a click-clack bed in the living room. I could move it into my room but I get the feeling mom would get rather pissed if I did that. Really though, I think mom had me come basically to help pay for everything because as soon as I got here she had me buy her groceries and cigarettes. Yea, so welcome home. Ha. As soon as Jeff left she handed me a beer and lit up a bowl and asked if I wanted any, so I guess the general idea is to keep me fucked up and happy. I've never really been much for pot. I tried it like everyone else but really I just don't get why its such a big deal to a lot of kids. Looks like mom, aunt albertine, chris, and julian lite up atleast once a day. It's not a big deal to me, though I am worried about mom because she definately doesn't need any more addictions.
For the past few days I've been passed between my various family memebers, I went with Jeff to the Saturday Market which is basically a little out-door market where they sell fresh produce and hand-made crafty stuff. It was neat, I need to get some more of my bracelets done so I can head up there and sell them there since with that I don't have to deal with consignment fees like I do in GA. I also saw my grandmother, though she had no idea who I was. She's got really aweful alzheimers it sucks because she's one of the ones who basically raised me and she really just had no idea who I was, or even who my mother was. That was depressing. The other day I went up the the mall close by and applied at a bunch of places. Mom wants me to work at Macy's with her but I would love to work at Hot Topic so I could get my purple streaks back and ,dammit, I am getting my tounge pierced. That's really all, I'm just trying to get settled and find a job. I miss everybody a lot but it is exciting to get a fresh start. Already my mother, aunts, and cousin are trying to set me up with boys. Yea, great they will all be burn outs. Patrick is still messaging me sporatically I just don't even look at them anymore I tried to block him again, we'll see if it works. I need to block him on here too but I don't really know how, or even if I can since all my entries are public. The weather is kind of cold out here in the morning and at night but it's really nice out right now. Thank god we have a bus stop right in front of the house so I can get around pretty easily even without a car.
Outside...
Living room (my room for now) I sleep on that click-clack bed on the left side.
Again...HI MOM!
Kitchen/ dining room. Apparently, we are hiding the vodka under the sink.
Bathroom...
I didn't bother taking pictures of my mother's or my rooms because there's not really anything in them right now but clothes. I am supposed to get a bed this weekend. I don't really have a problem sleeping on a futon but being in the living room probably won't work long-term. HAhaha.
<3Jessi
Yea, I know it's lame but I was thinking of you.... Look, I still have to skull earing in haha!
Okay so Thursday morning Dad drove me to the airport and made sure I got to security but when I turned hug him before I got in line I saw his eyes were all teary and I was like NOOO!!! DAMMIT YOU CAN'T CRY THAT'S NOT FAIR! God, I felt like shit. But I thought I should go, try it, so I did and I think it was the right decision in spite of everything I left. If I hadn't come I would have always wondered what could have happened out here. So I caught my plane about just in time because security took for freaking ever and I was on that plane to Seattle for almost 6 hours. I figured since I didn't sleep the night before I would sleep on the plane. WRONG. I was in the aisle seat and there was a spanish couple next to me that chattered in spanish the whole time and had to pee EVERY 20 MINUTES so I was not really given a chance, and the seats are uncomfortable anyway so I mostly read and watched movies on my zune. Once I got to Seattle I had a 2 hour layover but I had to go all the way to the other side of the airport for the Air Alaska gates so I walked all the way over there and grabbed a sandwich just in time to board this tiny ass propellor plane. I was scared shitless, the plane to Seattle had been a regular giant ass plane this one looked like I could push it over. I took a picture of it, ha, I'll put it up later. But it wasn't so bad I sat next to this nice buisness man who takes that plane almost everyday to commute between Seattle and Eugene, I thought that was insane but I didn't say that. I guess its the same as a bus and if his company pays for it, really it's only an hour commute. I survived that plane ride and MIRACULOUSLY my bags made it too so I got my luggage and met my uncle Jeff and Mom in the lower airport and they took me back to my mom's house. It's cute, just a two bed room little house.
I mean really, is this thing going to take off or just roll?
We don't really have any furniture and for now I am sleeping on a click-clack bed in the living room. I could move it into my room but I get the feeling mom would get rather pissed if I did that. Really though, I think mom had me come basically to help pay for everything because as soon as I got here she had me buy her groceries and cigarettes. Yea, so welcome home. Ha. As soon as Jeff left she handed me a beer and lit up a bowl and asked if I wanted any, so I guess the general idea is to keep me fucked up and happy. I've never really been much for pot. I tried it like everyone else but really I just don't get why its such a big deal to a lot of kids. Looks like mom, aunt albertine, chris, and julian lite up atleast once a day. It's not a big deal to me, though I am worried about mom because she definately doesn't need any more addictions.
For the past few days I've been passed between my various family memebers, I went with Jeff to the Saturday Market which is basically a little out-door market where they sell fresh produce and hand-made crafty stuff. It was neat, I need to get some more of my bracelets done so I can head up there and sell them there since with that I don't have to deal with consignment fees like I do in GA. I also saw my grandmother, though she had no idea who I was. She's got really aweful alzheimers it sucks because she's one of the ones who basically raised me and she really just had no idea who I was, or even who my mother was. That was depressing. The other day I went up the the mall close by and applied at a bunch of places. Mom wants me to work at Macy's with her but I would love to work at Hot Topic so I could get my purple streaks back and ,dammit, I am getting my tounge pierced. That's really all, I'm just trying to get settled and find a job. I miss everybody a lot but it is exciting to get a fresh start. Already my mother, aunts, and cousin are trying to set me up with boys. Yea, great they will all be burn outs. Patrick is still messaging me sporatically I just don't even look at them anymore I tried to block him again, we'll see if it works. I need to block him on here too but I don't really know how, or even if I can since all my entries are public. The weather is kind of cold out here in the morning and at night but it's really nice out right now. Thank god we have a bus stop right in front of the house so I can get around pretty easily even without a car.
Outside...
Living room (my room for now) I sleep on that click-clack bed on the left side.
Again...HI MOM!
Kitchen/ dining room. Apparently, we are hiding the vodka under the sink.
Bathroom...
I didn't bother taking pictures of my mother's or my rooms because there's not really anything in them right now but clothes. I am supposed to get a bed this weekend. I don't really have a problem sleeping on a futon but being in the living room probably won't work long-term. HAhaha.
<3Jessi