i'm afraid to mis-step.  but you never know until you try?

Classes are over, I could go home right now. I don't want to. I want to stay. I want to have an apartment here. I want to stay with my GMC friends. I don't want them to leave. I like my family here. I don't want to go anywhere.

I really want a hug from my mom.

my mom's last day of work was today.
terminated.

she's applying and interviewing at places like hannaford, mcdonald's and trader joe's.

=(

yesterday i was wearing a dress for the closing ceremony of RYLA.  on the way to the room i put my mom in my mom turns to me and asks, "morgan, when did you shave your legs?"

we laughed for a while - i haven't shaved my legs in years.

-get on a decent sleep schedule
-get on a decent eating schedule
-get some car freedom from my mother
-cook more from scratch
-buy more local produce

i need to re-evaluate.

all of a sudden i'm really angry with everything and don't even want to go through with graduation or the party and i just want to be done with everything forever.  i don't want to be around my family, my mother, i don't want to have to act better than who i am, i don't want to mind my manners and watch what i say just to please them.  i don't want ( Read more... )

I just need to remember this girl:


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I am fighting desperately to hold on to the being I am.

i can't let you get away with killing that person inside me.

i'm really not sure what to think any more.