we got vibrations coming up from the floor
So I am revamping this scene in the girl!Sam AU, and man, I really do not like having to cut stuff out and move it around. I know intellectually I am making the story better, restoring the narrative drive rather than letting it sputter in neutral so I can have another sex scene, but when I actually have to start moving paragraphs around and deleting stuff, I feel like I am damaging the structural integrity of the story. Which is utter bullshit, because I am actually shoring it up. But generally, I feel I write a pretty tight story, where everything kind of fits together and one thing follows on another in a seamless fashion, and now I have to break up those connections and slide new things in those slots, and it's all very anxiety-inducing.
At least I didn't wait eight months to do it, like I did with "Razor's Edge." Of course, "Razor's Edge" was only about 2500 words long. This is 21,000 and still growing.
Which leads me to the fannish5, which I haven't done in forever, but this week's question made me laugh:
Name five totally self-indulgent story ideas. (The fanfic you would write if you didn't care if you had an audience and also had no shame.)
Um. *points up* I think 21K+ words of underage genderswap hetcest AU is proof that what little shame I have has gone on holiday. I'm also not sure it'll have much of an audience beyond me and the three people I've already made promise they'll read it regardless of their actual interest, because if it gets no response at all, there could be tears.
It was hard coming up with five things in this category, and most of them are RPF ideas, because RPF still squicks me on many, many levels.
1. George and Brad and their new B&B in Malibu
2. Jensen Ackles on the run from crazed Canadian assassins led by Sandra Oh (because pissing Callum Keith Rennie off is never ever a good idea)
3. Greg Grunberg, zombie wrangler, on the SPN set in Vancouver, schooling Padalecki and Ackles on the fine art of real life zombie wrangling (with permission from fox1013)
4. All of my Mary Sues
5. the utterly cliched Wincest cockblocking fic I would totally write if I could figure out why I can't write Wincest
Speaking of shame, and not having any, you've all seen Tricia Helfer's Playboy spread, right? Dear god, that woman is beautiful.
Okay, back to editing, so I can move forward to the next sex scene...
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At least I didn't wait eight months to do it, like I did with "Razor's Edge." Of course, "Razor's Edge" was only about 2500 words long. This is 21,000 and still growing.
Which leads me to the fannish5, which I haven't done in forever, but this week's question made me laugh:
Name five totally self-indulgent story ideas. (The fanfic you would write if you didn't care if you had an audience and also had no shame.)
Um. *points up* I think 21K+ words of underage genderswap hetcest AU is proof that what little shame I have has gone on holiday. I'm also not sure it'll have much of an audience beyond me and the three people I've already made promise they'll read it regardless of their actual interest, because if it gets no response at all, there could be tears.
It was hard coming up with five things in this category, and most of them are RPF ideas, because RPF still squicks me on many, many levels.
1. George and Brad and their new B&B in Malibu
2. Jensen Ackles on the run from crazed Canadian assassins led by Sandra Oh (because pissing Callum Keith Rennie off is never ever a good idea)
3. Greg Grunberg, zombie wrangler, on the SPN set in Vancouver, schooling Padalecki and Ackles on the fine art of real life zombie wrangling (with permission from fox1013)
4. All of my Mary Sues
5. the utterly cliched Wincest cockblocking fic I would totally write if I could figure out why I can't write Wincest
Speaking of shame, and not having any, you've all seen Tricia Helfer's Playboy spread, right? Dear god, that woman is beautiful.
Okay, back to editing, so I can move forward to the next sex scene...
~*~