Change is thick in the air......
It has been a long time since I've posted on livejournal, I keep blogging on myspace, and that is stupid. I need to stop blogging on myspace, and write on this thing, or should I just stop altogether, or write the same things on each one? ugh. who cares.
So lately I've been debating if I'm going to stay in Chicago or move back to Georgia, particularily Athens and attend UGA. I've already changed my fafsa and will be mailing my application for transferring next week. I auditioned and applied for Roosevelt Universities jazz studies program here in Chicago which I basically have paid for, and would set me in this city for another 4 years and I would be graduating with 2 degrees. a bachelors in jazz studies/music performance and a bachelors in Psychology. I am having a really hard time deciding what I want, and want to make sure that I end up in the place where I am going to be happiest and grow the most. I have already grown so much here in Chicago, I miss the south so much. I'm going down for a week in April. When I get home from my vacation I will know if I got accepted by Roosevelt. I will make a final decision when I am down there, and will take the steps to get a GA residency when I'm down there. If I move I will leave at the end of July. A good solid 5 years in Chicago.
2007 is a year of change. Amy is divorcing her husband, people are getting sick with diseases, others are getting married, Michelle is pregnant, my household is changing. Meghan, Melissa's girlfriend is moving out next week. They're still staying together but they are in dire need of space and breathing room. This means our rent goes up, along with the utilities. We are getting rid of the cable and keeping the internet. The cable was such a distraction anyway, it'll be for the best. Besides spring is here and I want to spend more time outside.
I have been very solitary lately. I have been depressed. The sunshine is helping, so is making more money. Last week though, I could not focus on anything. I did nothing but feel sad and bad and sorry for myself. I could barely do my homework, i did bad on a midterm, I didn't really care what I looked like, or smelled like, I didn't do anything around the house but lay there. I didn't want to talk to anybody, and I barely ate any food. It's been a long time since I have been depressed. I'm going to try to work through it though, I'm not feeling completely hopeless or suicidal yet, but I know that I'm going to have to get counseling very soon before it turns into that.
If I stay in town I'm going to need a new band. In a month or so, well probably after versionfest I'll do a call of musicians, and try to get something started.
In a nutshell.
I'm sick of the attitudes from people that I thought were full of love.
I'm happy about new friendships forming, and having my work recognized.
I need to get laid.
I am still happy to be a part of my community, and that this community is growing and changing, there is potential for something truly amazing here, if people stay focused and don't fall too hard into the nasty holes of addiction or ego.
So lately I've been debating if I'm going to stay in Chicago or move back to Georgia, particularily Athens and attend UGA. I've already changed my fafsa and will be mailing my application for transferring next week. I auditioned and applied for Roosevelt Universities jazz studies program here in Chicago which I basically have paid for, and would set me in this city for another 4 years and I would be graduating with 2 degrees. a bachelors in jazz studies/music performance and a bachelors in Psychology. I am having a really hard time deciding what I want, and want to make sure that I end up in the place where I am going to be happiest and grow the most. I have already grown so much here in Chicago, I miss the south so much. I'm going down for a week in April. When I get home from my vacation I will know if I got accepted by Roosevelt. I will make a final decision when I am down there, and will take the steps to get a GA residency when I'm down there. If I move I will leave at the end of July. A good solid 5 years in Chicago.
2007 is a year of change. Amy is divorcing her husband, people are getting sick with diseases, others are getting married, Michelle is pregnant, my household is changing. Meghan, Melissa's girlfriend is moving out next week. They're still staying together but they are in dire need of space and breathing room. This means our rent goes up, along with the utilities. We are getting rid of the cable and keeping the internet. The cable was such a distraction anyway, it'll be for the best. Besides spring is here and I want to spend more time outside.
I have been very solitary lately. I have been depressed. The sunshine is helping, so is making more money. Last week though, I could not focus on anything. I did nothing but feel sad and bad and sorry for myself. I could barely do my homework, i did bad on a midterm, I didn't really care what I looked like, or smelled like, I didn't do anything around the house but lay there. I didn't want to talk to anybody, and I barely ate any food. It's been a long time since I have been depressed. I'm going to try to work through it though, I'm not feeling completely hopeless or suicidal yet, but I know that I'm going to have to get counseling very soon before it turns into that.
If I stay in town I'm going to need a new band. In a month or so, well probably after versionfest I'll do a call of musicians, and try to get something started.
In a nutshell.
I'm sick of the attitudes from people that I thought were full of love.
I'm happy about new friendships forming, and having my work recognized.
I need to get laid.
I am still happy to be a part of my community, and that this community is growing and changing, there is potential for something truly amazing here, if people stay focused and don't fall too hard into the nasty holes of addiction or ego.