ashamed and humiliated
I haven't felt okay since new years eve when I woke up with an old familiar feeling of being hit by a hammer, but not remembering the night before.
I felt like I screwed up.
alienating my friendships, a party monster. a monster.
last night I tried to help a friend who has been out of control for a while and it was an ugly scene. She couldn't drive and I literally ended up shoving her into a cab 'cause she flat out refused to give me her keys. I realize that I am not far from being that disaster myself.
So I'm going to try and do something about it.
yup.
I felt like I screwed up.
alienating my friendships, a party monster. a monster.
last night I tried to help a friend who has been out of control for a while and it was an ugly scene. She couldn't drive and I literally ended up shoving her into a cab 'cause she flat out refused to give me her keys. I realize that I am not far from being that disaster myself.
So I'm going to try and do something about it.
yup.