Hope is a four letter word

[muffinbitch]

So, I haven't been updating here at all, lately. And I need to apologise to everyone who's entries I haven't commented on, or emails I haven't replied to, or meetings I've cancelled (sometimes a few times in a row) - I've been not very well, at all, for most of this year, and I'm kind of just not coping any more. I've had chronic neck and back pain and, as a result, pretty chronic insomnia for most of this year, and as it goes on I've been able to cope with less and less - from being able to go out and see people, to keeping up with my sewing, to just being able to concentrate enough to reply to LJ entries, to being able to get through the whole three days a week of work I generally do, to being able to get through the day at all without being in too much pain or doing anything other than sitting on the couch and staring into space - it's all just becoming harder and harder, and I keep letting more and more of it go, because I just can't deal with it. So, sorry if it looks like I've been ignoring any of you. I really haven't meant to, and I haven't updated here in ages, because I feel like it keeps getting harder to say anything. At all.

So, my love to everyone reading this - I know a lot of you are going through far worse than me right now, and I'm sorry I've been so absent, and I really hope you're all doing okay.