i'm back!
ey suckas!!!
so i deleted the myspace account i had for "so long". i just sat there one night during a bout with insomnia and i figured out how to delete it, and i just did. it was floundering anyway. i put a bunch of digable shit there for people to read but no one really read it anyway, and some people probably did, but i am sure it didn't matter much to them. i am in major flux right now, but of a very good kind. i have my head on straight and i am wearing horse blinders and staring forward without much anxiety. i want to grow, and i want to grow quickly. best of all, i am not afraid to fall, because i've fallen before and i think i can handle it better than ever before. i feel as if this is really my second chance at doing something wonderful. i can stand little dips and falls along the way because i know i can bounce back from stuff like that easily. watch me.
i am not really playing much music right now, but i am listening to music alot more now. in the shower, while i get ready, while i work. i try to listen to it in a sincere and searching way. i want to have something in common with sound and the way it moves. i want to move with it.
i am still working in the toy store. it feels great to put smiles on people's faces.
let's see how long i keep up the journal this time around. if you see one a week for a while, i might actually be back for good. if you see me disappear again, no fret.. it's only the internet.