this place is a grave yard... and maybe right now, its exactly what i need ( Read more... )

whatever
i realized the other day that: a.) i can't write worth a damn, b.) my artwork really sucks ass & c.) writer's/artist's block sucks even more ass!

my life to date:
1.) i've realized that when i do find a job, it'll be a pain in the ass. i have william every other week, no big deal when you don't have a job, right? well, i want to work, i ( Read more... )

running out of words like derailing ( Read more... )

blah, whatever... my week was busy... i can't say that it sucked because i was drinking for most of it... so yeah, the family came over... my brother, his wife, their two kids... my grandparents... my immediate family... my son... my boyfriend... all pretty much confinedto 2 rooms with the option of going outside... i had a complete lack of peace ( Read more... )

so yeah... he called me this morning. i have to wonder. yeah sure, i could bad mouth him like i do on my myspace page, but i thought i'd do something different. today is a weird day for me for whatever reason. so uhh yeah, what the fuck ever, right? i'd talk about my feelings like some dr phil episode but i don't really see the point in it. today ( Read more... )

okay, so here i am today. laying on my stomach next to a sleeping tony & watching some weird crap on the sci fi channel... waiting for my lawyer to call me back... to this, i say blah. yes, i would like for my lawyer to call, yes, i would like for tony to wake up... yes, i would like to know what the hell i'm watching. so there, that's what i'm ( Read more... )

jole died on my dad's birthday.... seemed kinda weird.... she ate a little bit of something.... gave the rest to her dad.... laid down on the couch.... & just went to sleep.... funny.... you know ( Read more... )

did you know that the date june 6, 2006 will appear as 06-06-06? hehehehe i'm still waiting for the anti-christ. hmmmm, another year has passed like a breeze. my son is now a year old & on the way to being in college. i can't help but wonder if years to come will pass so quickly for us. i feel like i'm the same person but i know now that i'm not & ( Read more... )

so.... i'm now 22... big deal... i can already drink & smoke... i guess the only thing to look forward to is ( Read more... )

hmmm... this is william's card... kinda scary....


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