funerals & what not....
jole died on my dad's birthday.... seemed kinda weird.... she ate a little bit of something.... gave the rest to her dad.... laid down on the couch.... & just went to sleep.... funny.... you know?
i guess sharon was right, you just expect to see them around....
i've been to 2 funerals in my life, & here's number three. i don't know which is harder, the wake or the funeral itself. having to say goodbye to someone like that. i'd known her for almost 8 years... hell, i expected i'd die before she did... i guess fate is weird like that... i offered her my kidney 3 times because we had the same blood type, the stubborn thing that she was just wouldn't take it.... i don't feel guilty for not seeing her... life happens.... we both got busy but it was great when we'd meet up. it was like seeing a movie star, it was just special like that.
jason called me a little while ago, he told me that he'd been crying at work. i can't blame him. i cried for about an hour after josh told me.... & then on again off again during the week. i think though, maybe i wasn't crying because she was dead & that we'd never see her again, maybe i was crying because i was happy for her. she's not in pain anymore, she doesn't have to live in a body that was failing, she's completely & utterly free now, going where ever she wants, whenever she wants....
we could all learn a lesson from her. just because life's a bitch, doesn't mean you have to be.... or something like that....
personally i say, mourn not her death, but celebrate her life. she lived much richer than any one of us....
i guess sharon was right, you just expect to see them around....
i've been to 2 funerals in my life, & here's number three. i don't know which is harder, the wake or the funeral itself. having to say goodbye to someone like that. i'd known her for almost 8 years... hell, i expected i'd die before she did... i guess fate is weird like that... i offered her my kidney 3 times because we had the same blood type, the stubborn thing that she was just wouldn't take it.... i don't feel guilty for not seeing her... life happens.... we both got busy but it was great when we'd meet up. it was like seeing a movie star, it was just special like that.
jason called me a little while ago, he told me that he'd been crying at work. i can't blame him. i cried for about an hour after josh told me.... & then on again off again during the week. i think though, maybe i wasn't crying because she was dead & that we'd never see her again, maybe i was crying because i was happy for her. she's not in pain anymore, she doesn't have to live in a body that was failing, she's completely & utterly free now, going where ever she wants, whenever she wants....
we could all learn a lesson from her. just because life's a bitch, doesn't mean you have to be.... or something like that....
personally i say, mourn not her death, but celebrate her life. she lived much richer than any one of us....