It's still a record, of some kind, from this to now: a whopping FOUR DAYS from finally stopping being so goddamned busy all the time, to trying to throw myself into the deep end of something that would have had a fairly intensive time and effort investment for the next several months of my life, provided me lots of distraction and "instant ( Read more... )

In response to this post, a friend emailed to ask me about time lines, in response to my reference to "a baker's dozen years after the [self-discovering] process began". His confusion over the math is explained by the fact that this process started *before* Matthew, and to some extent even before J and I met and began working with Gloria ( Read more... )

Today I am tired. Tired and crnaky and frustrated and a little underslept perhaps. Aware today that my life is momentarily defined more by constraints and boundaries than by freedoms and purpose... and yet, while all aware of this, I take a moment to enjoy the taste of my coffee, the luxury of sunlight, the privilege of expedient and private ( Read more... )

"Hope and faith are different. Whereas faith is self-affirming and acceptance of life as it is, hope involves a dissatisfaction with self and present circumstance, and is dependent upon external events or people to provide change. People hope that life will be different, or better, or fuller; their hoping involves a lack of acceptance and a thrust ( Read more... )

Burdensome Feelings ( Read more... )

something in ani_moore's daily Karmic Kisses is kicking my kushy tushy, and i'm not happy. i also slept badly last night and had an absolutely horrid workout this morning, so there's a good chance i'm just warming up to having a bad day.

the karmic koan in particular is, "Strive for progress, not perfection"the biggest part of my internal stress on the ( Read more... )