Another week over
Good Evening everyone,
Well, nothing really went according to plan this week, work was a lil slow, there was a bit of an issue between Kit, My sister and her bf, plus well, today wasen't all that great either.
Despite an not so great week, I'm still not sure whether it was a week where I lost or I won, was it success or was it failure?
I mean, indoor cricket, Tuesday night for example, could pretty much sum up my week. I was in a hurry to get there in the first place, then I started with the toss, which I was confident about, I won it, then asked everyone else what they wanted to do, We batted (attacked) first with little thought, and We did an average job of it, in fact a shit job of it. Despite this, When it came to fielding, I pushed the limits, I put the team on the edge and forced the best out of everyone, and even more so myself, in the end we only lost by a few runs which was an achievement in itself, even though we lost, we overcome our objectives.
And so, despite, me pissing a lot of people off, and uncovering probabally one too many truths this week, in relation to the above 3 I mentioned, in the end, The outcome I was after was achieved. The cost, I feel wasen't much, People got pissed and I would have temporarily lost some respect, but I did what I felt was right, and I didn't back down, which only earns respect from the right people.
Still, with that said, I've been thinking about morals and these principals such as truth, honour, respect, and I firmly believe in them, but I look at how some relationships work, and despite many of these things being keys to an successful relationship, I'm also forced to look and say, Does love really have rules? Can someone continously tell the truth about everything or do whatever it is, and have a perfect relationship, or with that thought, is the perfect relationship a myth?
I remember reading a quote which says "Even a god finds it hard to love and be wise at the same time"
And that couldn't be more true, You could almost say our battles in love are not between each other but between our heart and our head.
I know that, that's always the case with me.
So what do we do?
I believe that if there's one reason in the world that we have friends for, then this is it.
We need friends to tell us, when we are using our head or our heart too much. We need them to advise us, and guide us, when we are in battles with ourselves, This is where I went wrong in my particular case this week, despite in the end things being a success I could have done it without drawing as much of a blood bath as I did, and that could have been achieved by a friend properly guiding me.
And I think it couldn't be more true, I mean, we've all been in the situation before, when we are literally going insane, we talk to a friend, and they'll literally say just one sentence, and everything will just click, and you'll suddenly understand what to do.
You know it doesn't matter how wise you may be, a friend can be just all you need to make everything clear. It's like anything in life, you may be a black belt but when a theif comes along you freeze, or you may be insanely talkative but you suddenly can't speak when you see the most amazingly beautiful person.
Life always is ironic.
The other thing I learnt this week was, although I've known it for a while, but the more power you push, the more control you try to influence, the more extreme you get and the more it corrupts you from the inside. I've been studying Warfare and other forms of Strategy for years now, but this week when I applied it, it really corrupted me, It was probabally the wrong kind of ammunition for the problem, It's very much like how the US will use $200,000 worth of technology to blow up a single person.
But once again, as I said this is where a real friend would come in and whack some sense into you, I didn't really have one of those at my side this week.
None the less, Learnt some good lessons, and despite things being messy, all that needed to be achieved was achieved.
So, where to now? what's next for me, well, this weekend I'm going to get my act together a bit, and I'm going to write down some goals for this month, and I'm going to go through them bit by bit and achieve them.
Sounds simple doesn't it?
We'll wait and see.
Goodnight Everyone.
Well, nothing really went according to plan this week, work was a lil slow, there was a bit of an issue between Kit, My sister and her bf, plus well, today wasen't all that great either.
Despite an not so great week, I'm still not sure whether it was a week where I lost or I won, was it success or was it failure?
I mean, indoor cricket, Tuesday night for example, could pretty much sum up my week. I was in a hurry to get there in the first place, then I started with the toss, which I was confident about, I won it, then asked everyone else what they wanted to do, We batted (attacked) first with little thought, and We did an average job of it, in fact a shit job of it. Despite this, When it came to fielding, I pushed the limits, I put the team on the edge and forced the best out of everyone, and even more so myself, in the end we only lost by a few runs which was an achievement in itself, even though we lost, we overcome our objectives.
And so, despite, me pissing a lot of people off, and uncovering probabally one too many truths this week, in relation to the above 3 I mentioned, in the end, The outcome I was after was achieved. The cost, I feel wasen't much, People got pissed and I would have temporarily lost some respect, but I did what I felt was right, and I didn't back down, which only earns respect from the right people.
Still, with that said, I've been thinking about morals and these principals such as truth, honour, respect, and I firmly believe in them, but I look at how some relationships work, and despite many of these things being keys to an successful relationship, I'm also forced to look and say, Does love really have rules? Can someone continously tell the truth about everything or do whatever it is, and have a perfect relationship, or with that thought, is the perfect relationship a myth?
I remember reading a quote which says "Even a god finds it hard to love and be wise at the same time"
And that couldn't be more true, You could almost say our battles in love are not between each other but between our heart and our head.
I know that, that's always the case with me.
So what do we do?
I believe that if there's one reason in the world that we have friends for, then this is it.
We need friends to tell us, when we are using our head or our heart too much. We need them to advise us, and guide us, when we are in battles with ourselves, This is where I went wrong in my particular case this week, despite in the end things being a success I could have done it without drawing as much of a blood bath as I did, and that could have been achieved by a friend properly guiding me.
And I think it couldn't be more true, I mean, we've all been in the situation before, when we are literally going insane, we talk to a friend, and they'll literally say just one sentence, and everything will just click, and you'll suddenly understand what to do.
You know it doesn't matter how wise you may be, a friend can be just all you need to make everything clear. It's like anything in life, you may be a black belt but when a theif comes along you freeze, or you may be insanely talkative but you suddenly can't speak when you see the most amazingly beautiful person.
Life always is ironic.
The other thing I learnt this week was, although I've known it for a while, but the more power you push, the more control you try to influence, the more extreme you get and the more it corrupts you from the inside. I've been studying Warfare and other forms of Strategy for years now, but this week when I applied it, it really corrupted me, It was probabally the wrong kind of ammunition for the problem, It's very much like how the US will use $200,000 worth of technology to blow up a single person.
But once again, as I said this is where a real friend would come in and whack some sense into you, I didn't really have one of those at my side this week.
None the less, Learnt some good lessons, and despite things being messy, all that needed to be achieved was achieved.
So, where to now? what's next for me, well, this weekend I'm going to get my act together a bit, and I'm going to write down some goals for this month, and I'm going to go through them bit by bit and achieve them.
Sounds simple doesn't it?
We'll wait and see.
Goodnight Everyone.