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the feelings I have for abby are growing daily. I believe she loves me as I love her.
I dont want to disappoint her, as she doesn't want to disappoint me.
I just wish I knew or liked something, or aspired to do something meaningful with my life like she does. I just feel lost every day. I feel trapped because what I like to do (fitness) doesnt translate into any good paying job. She, on the other hand, seems to aspire to be a ph.d. how can I say that I'm happy with what i'm doing when im not. I'm not happy about having to work at all. Work sucks. That's why its called work. I dont think i'll enjoy anything because it takes time away from me being with the people I love. That's always the bottom line for me. I can't shake that feeling.
sometimes I really want to shivel up and cry. I wish things were just better. Doing things to change my situation doesnt seem to help, especially when you literally can't do anything but sit idly by while the world slaps you in the face.
I dont want to disappoint her, as she doesn't want to disappoint me.
I just wish I knew or liked something, or aspired to do something meaningful with my life like she does. I just feel lost every day. I feel trapped because what I like to do (fitness) doesnt translate into any good paying job. She, on the other hand, seems to aspire to be a ph.d. how can I say that I'm happy with what i'm doing when im not. I'm not happy about having to work at all. Work sucks. That's why its called work. I dont think i'll enjoy anything because it takes time away from me being with the people I love. That's always the bottom line for me. I can't shake that feeling.
sometimes I really want to shivel up and cry. I wish things were just better. Doing things to change my situation doesnt seem to help, especially when you literally can't do anything but sit idly by while the world slaps you in the face.