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Me and Abby tell each other we love on another now. Quite frequently. I like that we do so. But I can't shake this really low feeling that somehow she is just telling me what I want to hear. I sincerely love her, more than probably anyone else outside of my immediate family and my mom. Sometimes I feel like im living in a dream because I went from having no one who loved me to the woman of my dreams.
I always feel sad that I can only spend such a limited amount of time with her. We are both busy all week, then I see her for maybe a combined total of almost a day. Possibly twice if its a long weekend. It would seem like a lot of time to some couples, but I think we both feel we were meant for each other, so its more like being separated from the love of your life for a long time and only getting to see them for a day. At least thats how I feel.
Its really difficult juggling between my intense love for my mom and abby. I feel like I see neither of them very much during the week. I want to see them both all the time - just live in a world where they are both close to me and are happy and enjoying life themselves. This is my dream.
I always feel sad that I can only spend such a limited amount of time with her. We are both busy all week, then I see her for maybe a combined total of almost a day. Possibly twice if its a long weekend. It would seem like a lot of time to some couples, but I think we both feel we were meant for each other, so its more like being separated from the love of your life for a long time and only getting to see them for a day. At least thats how I feel.
Its really difficult juggling between my intense love for my mom and abby. I feel like I see neither of them very much during the week. I want to see them both all the time - just live in a world where they are both close to me and are happy and enjoying life themselves. This is my dream.